chiaumei

胡思乱想。

2012-02-03T20:34:00.000-08:00

啊，也不知道是怎么了。
真的是自己多想么？

我真的很没自信。
可是我要相信，我必须相信。
尽管再累，再痛，再烦。

我想妳了。

If you can feel my heart...,
chiaumei.

我恋爱了 :D

2012-02-02T23:40:00.000-08:00

2012年2月2日，对我来说是个很重要的日子。
因为，我恋爱了^^
觉得好幸福！<3

虽然啊，并不是第一次。
可是彼此都有感觉的话，这一次是第一次吧:DD

的确，得来不易啊。
有谁会想到呢？
连我自己也害怕这一切只是一场梦。
可是我绝不会让自己醒来，更不会让别人来破坏这一切！

其实也没什么特别的。
交往之前也是一样这样相处啊。
只是现在更确定了 :)

我也不相信永远。
可是我真的很想就这样一辈子。
虽然很长，也可能会腻，可是就是想这样，腻一辈子 :pp

我知道我们不可能会被认同。
就连身边的朋友也用不自然的眼神看你，你还奢求别人谅解你么？
可是他们都不懂啊。
不懂她的好。

只要一想起她，我就会很幸福的笑着。
甚至有时候还很想哭，幸福得想哭 :')
我真的好爱好爱她。
我要爱她，一辈子。
如果这一次注定错过，我将不会再为谁动心。
也许会恋爱，会结婚，但不会再交心 :)

我想好好珍惜，好好地去爱。
不会再让自己后悔，她不会是我的遗憾。

叶紫慧，我爱妳。<3

Forever C:,
chiaumei.

现实。

2012-01-09T01:13:00.000-08:00

好烦呐。
怎么烦恼总是不断啊。
之前那些“攻心计”的事件已告一段落了。
现在要烦恼的是现实的问题。
很现实的问题。

我也一样。
很想认真啊。
所以现在很烦恼呢。
我不喜欢欺骗，尤其是我爱，我在乎的人。

你这个人，有时候真的很单纯。
也许是成长环境的关系吧。
可是我不同呢。
如果被发现，我想我会死得很惨。
真的很惨。

可是要我放弃这一切，抱歉，办不到。
已经不是不甘心的问题了。
是，如果失去，我的心就像被挖了个洞，很难受。
所以现在能做的，是好好的隐藏么？
唉，不管了。
只要珍惜就好啦。
谁也不知道下一秒会发生什么事对吧!

珍惜身边的一切！
直到不能再继续下去！
至少我努力过，争取过，勇敢过！C:

爱与不爱这个话题，不想再说了。
毕竟，谁也不是谁的最爱了。
只要一起舒服，那就够啦 :)

谢谢你的美好<3 ,
chiaumei.

新的一年，新的开始 C:

2012-01-06T20:48:00.000-08:00

好吧，放下吧。
新的一年，就该有新的开始，重新再来！
别再胡思乱想。
别再想太多。
相信对方，相信自己。

今年，我会让自己不一样。
不管是在哪一方面。
也不要这么孩子气了。
要沉得住气啊！

最后，新年快乐！:DDD

就这样，一直一起走到最后<3,
chiaumei.

无助 :'(

2011-12-30T20:07:00.000-08:00

我以为，会有那么一点，是因为我。
还是，把自己想得太重要了么。

那种感觉你怎么会懂。
你们怎么能理解。

我想你了，我曾经的最爱。
爱你似乎比较快乐，比较轻松。
能否回到过去，我想亲口说，我爱你。

如果你还记得，那一年，那一天，每一天。
我从来没有后悔。
我喜欢你，我爱你。

只是对你的感觉，如今只能一笑而过。
谢谢你，惹麻烦 :)

对不起，我还是做不到。

那种感觉，依然记忆犹新，
chiaumei.

不要以为没看见的，就是没发生过。

2011-12-29T21:09:00.000-08:00

我以为我不会介意。
可是又再一次的，我忍住了泪水。

有些事明知道不能碰的，却还是阻止不了自己。
到最后，还是让自己受伤了。

我不知道自己想干嘛。
也不知道，你的想法。
我好想好想把这一切当作是一场梦。
醒来之后，我们就是互不相关的陌生人。
你是你，我是我。

有些话，对我来说是一种讽刺。
说得对，我没那么伟大。
我无法拭去你的泪。
我以为我做的一切，最后换来的是我想要的结局。
可是我错了，错得很彻底。
我还有机会回头么？

在我面前，你还需要掩饰什么？
如果你认为，有些事不让我知道，是不想伤害我。
那么你错了。
和我一样，都错了，错在自以为。

我真的不想难过了。
我可以自己一个人过。
就算失去了你们，我还是可以活得好好的。
在不久的将来，我又会把你们忘记。
又会把彼此在一起的感觉通通忘光。
想回忆，却什么也想不起来。

你永远都不知道，到最后受伤的，不是你。
我真的没那么伟大。
我要的只是我喜欢的人，也喜欢我。
真心的喜欢我。
不欺骗我。
但是你做的一切，已经不是可以用欺骗来形容的。
那是一种背叛。
对我来说，就是如此。

走吧，都走吧。
说的不是气话。
朋友？真心的有几个...?

Get out of my way,I don't need any of you now,
chiaumei.

属于。

2011-12-21T21:13:00.000-08:00

有时候真希望人永远活在梦里。
因为这样，也许我们就可以永远不分开了。

尽管如此，我很开心呢。
为什么开心？
嗯，一种感觉吧。
一种，从未有过的感觉。
也许，一直这样下去，也是件好事。

不要回头看嗯。
向前走，绝不回头。
加油，你可以的。

深呼吸，走下去 :),
chiaumei.

开窍！

2011-12-02T00:30:00.000-08:00

我真的严重的发觉，我这个人，需要开窍！
怎么说？
想通了，真的。
今天在开车上班的时候，突然开窍了。

其实，我在伤什么啊？
对方不会懂。
就算懂了，也弥补不回不是么？
所以啊，什么事情，笑笑就过了。

人不一定要坚强，但一定要乐观面对。
我还是可以哭，还是可以每晚都在哭。
但我会面对，逃避没有用，乐观面对才是王道！

我知道我拥有了别人要不到的幸福。
那，就从现在开始，让别人羡慕我的幸福吧。
至于我自己认为的幸福，不重要了。
该来的会来，不来的，就试着去接受这个事实啊！

我的情绪，飘浮不定。
我的心，一直跟着你走。
瞧！它似乎跑回来了！^^

这次，我要为自己而活 :),
chiaumei.

让我重生。

2011-12-01T21:27:00.000-08:00

昨天，心碎了。
尽管如此，我知道我的心还未死。
我就是那么执着。
是不是这样的我，让你厌倦了...？

从以前到现在，你说的每句话，都会左右我的情绪。
呵，有时候甚至还狠狠地刺痛了我的心。
你说过的那些话，我不曾忘记。
我永远记在心里，好让我们的关系不变。
但是，累积在心里的话，似乎让彼此更疏远了。

老实说，我总是说我知道该怎么做了。
但其实，我什么都不懂。
我很矛盾，我狠不下心。

我不知道你对别人说出那些话时，你心里在想些什么。
是在说服别人，还是在说服自己？

现在我只知道，我不该再抱任何希望了。
总有一天，我不会再哭泣。
眼泪，并没让心好过些。

讨厌这颗心。
这个千苍百孔的心。
这颗心，怎么那么容易见异思迁？！
说忘就忘；说爱就爱...

我，还能爱谁...?,
chiaumei.

相信。

2011-11-30T23:34:00.000-08:00

啊，心好乱。
我该相信么？

其实我很笨。
所以请不要骗我。
我的心会碎。

其实很多事我都知道。
只是选择不说出口。
因为我清楚什么该说，什么不该说。

你不让我说，我就不说。
你不希望我提起，我当然连想也不会想。
我就是这样的一个人。

可是我好害怕。
我很害怕，一切都不是我想的一样！
为什么你所说的，和我知道的都不一样？
你说的是真？是假？

哪位才是真正的你？
我分不清，我不会分。
我说过，我笨。

你不说，我永远不会懂。
不过我宁可你不说，也不愿你骗我。

如果他能带给你快乐，去吧。
随他去。
只要你幸福，真的。
呵，不过，我似乎没这个资格，说这些话吧。

不想了。
我会疯。
就这样。
随缘吧。

多么想，就这样赖着不走...,
chiaumei.

烦恼。

2011-11-29T21:20:00.000-08:00

唉，我觉得啊，人生少不了的就是烦恼。
每天都在烦，都在挣扎，都在做抉择。
其实，我是个很讨厌做决定的人。
不，应该说我很害怕，很害怕做错决定，后悔一生。
说我懦弱吧，我认了。
是不是该独立了？为自己的人生负责？我不知道。

以前，我老是说别人幼稚，思想不成熟。
但其实，最幼稚的是我。
就这样下去吧。
不想改变了。
不想再为任何人而改变了。
如果不喜欢这样的我，那也就算了。

从昨天开始，我开始发觉我有很严重的人群恐惧症！
怎么回事啊？！
我开始害怕了。
我必须勇敢面对！
就像以前我常说的：死就死！XDDD
对啊，没什么大不了的。
应该要长大，要学会适应！

有人说，我变了；
也有人说我一点也没变。
其实我不知道该给什么反应。
也许，是没有人了解我吧。

我很简单。
只是思想有点复杂。
所以这些日子，我都控制自己，尽量不要乱想。
可是，我发觉我再也不能像以前一样了。
以前，可以把所有事都放在心里，自己哭自己闹。
现在，难过时就想找个依靠。
我讨厌这样没用的自己。

别人也许不明白。
不，他们根本不可能明白。
我必须开始学会一个人生活。
我要习惯做决定。
我要学会很多很多。
我不能再任性下去了。
不为什么，就为了我自己。
也许直到死去，才会解脱吧。

悲观，对啊，我是。
我也想乐观，也不想这么情绪化。
可是，性格吧，这就是我。
唉，太自我了。
我可以失忆么？
只想做个简单单纯的人，似乎很难呢。

没关系，收拾心情，你可以的！:)
告诉自己，生活是很美好的。
这一关，熬过了，就没事了。
既然回不去，就创造更好的未来！

我曾经，很爱你...,
chiaumei.

幸福。

2011-10-04T00:42:00.000-07:00

何谓幸福？
幸福没有一定的意思。
并没有一定的说法；一定的方程式。
只要此刻，你觉得幸福，那就是幸福。

幸福是一种感觉。
你摸不到，抓不住，但你感觉得到。

此刻，你说我幸福么？
我不知道。
因为，我得不到我想要的；
因为，我失去了原本可以拥有的机会；
因为，我执着于过去；
因为，我放不开过去；
因为，我忘不了，忘不了过去的一切。

说我傻？笨？我承认。
只是那就是我。
我的性格，是个爱回忆过去的人。

习惯坚强。
但如果你了解我，就知道我有多脆弱。
弱得，会为一些很小的事情而哭泣。
可是你从来不知道。
你不愿知道。

以为对我的伤害只是在过去么？
你错了。
错得彻底。
至今，我还在伤害中，爬不起来。

可我告诉自己，这是最后一次了。
因为十月了。
十月应该是个好月。
至少我是这么认为的。
我答应自己，这个十月，我会让从前的自己回来。
会找回那个，不为你而活，原本的自己。

我会过得很好。
不必愧疚。
因为除了愧疚，你给不了我什么。
所以，我们都要好好的过。:)

时间过得很快。
一年的光阴就要过完了。
我似乎，没做过些什么==
不过我就快要去上课啦！
希望一切顺利 :DD

啊，很不好意思地说，很久没更新了==
看吧，我很懒。
而且我说过的话也不算话。
所以不能怪人家对你的印象不好 :(

还有件又气人又失望的事 D:
我从来没想过在你的心中我是这样的人。
我从来都是很真心地对待你。
可是，哼，又是一个一厢情愿。
我怎么总是喜欢一厢情愿啊？
觉得自己很犯贱，真的很贱 .__.

该重新思考，自己该怎么活着。
该如何改变自己的态度。
态度在生活里真的很重要，能改变很多事呢。

在想，如果我现在看回以前自己记录下来的心情，会是怎样呢？
应该心情会更糟吧。
毕竟我每次都是利用这里来发泄不开心的情绪。
然后开心时就屁股翘翘走人==
我是什么人啊？哈哈！

如果要问我最近过得怎样，嗯，就嗯吧！XD
Be right back!
Miss you! :DD

告一段落，我们。,
chiaumei.

264th Posts! :DDD

2011-06-17T20:51:00.000-07:00

Woohoo~
I'm back ^^
Do you guys miss me?
I don't think so haha.

Okay straight to the point.
I SERIOUSLY forgot I having a blog here -.-
And I didn't did what I had promised.
Well,I bet you can expected it all already ><

Life's bored.
Like water,I mean pure water.
Nor sea water or salt water whatever.
But don't you think it's an another happiness too?
Althought there's nothing special.
Do you? :)))

I was disappeared from here like half year? o.O
Yea.
Something happened.
I dun wish it happened but it just happened on the way that I never expected.
Seriously,I get hurt & I was sad.
But as you know,I used to be tough.
So I think,I will be okay soon...
I hope so..?haha :DD

I'm working in a gas company currently.
May start college next year.
So now,I'm just getting experience.
I'm sure I gain much :)
My colleagues there are nice too.
We used to loaf on the job together ^^
Shhh___secret :DDD

Life is like a routine now.
Everyday almost do the same thing.
But,something changed.
Please don't ask me why kenapa or dim gai...
Cause even myself also don't know what caused that happened.
Did I do something wrong?
Tell me if I did.
But I think I will never know it,for ever :)))

It's okay.
It's okay right.
The memory stick in my brain was full already.
So I can't & I'm not allow those bad memories stuck in my brain .
Be mature and ready for your future :D

Lastly,here to make an annoucement.
I get my car eddi~!
Woo~
Is that a good news?
May be :)))

If that's what you want,I will cooperate...very well,
chiaumei.

Working Life ^^

2010-12-22T05:17:00.000-08:00

My working life is quite tired.
But I'm sure if I get enough sleep,there's no problem ^^

And I got something want to complaint!
the musics that played in the shop were repeated & repeated everyday!
Whole day don't know listen a same song how many times -.-
Fortunately some songs are my favourite.

The sun there was beautiful ^^

For Yinkuan babe.
"Nah,your park ar ^^"

Lastly,pretty me :p

Three of the photos above were taken by yesterday.
See,my face so 'chan' -.-
Cause that day can't get enough sleep.
But today...hehe^^

Oh ya.
Have to inform you guys that this blog is recorded bout my life & some external feelings only.
But my another blog is recorded my internal feelings which is bout another chiaumei.
So,you will see the real me at there.
But still,I don't want it to show in public first.
May be...later :)

Is playing fool on Zhi Huey now.
Shhh___ ^^

Work hard tomorrow! :D,
chiaumei.

Nervous!

2010-12-20T11:51:00.000-08:00

Is nervous for tomoro ><
Ya,I start working tomoro.
I wish I will go into the right way or else I might lost in the station!

Working alone at a far place is quite suffer.
I hope that's much more better than what I expected.
May be I will meet my Mr.Right there?
Who knows?haha.
Obviously I'm just kidding.
I don't need any of them now.

Hope January would come faster so that I could work with Eunice ^^
But I think till that time I already used to it & don't need her anymore eddi haha.
But she's useful too.
We could gossip if we're bored.
The main condition is no customers la.
Don't you guys know I'm a very professional sales assistant?haha.
Seriously,I never complaint how many works I had done ^^

Good luck to myself :),
chiaumei.

New Job ^^

2010-12-19T11:27:00.000-08:00

Yea,found a new job at KLCC.
Wow,waiting for it ^^

Don't ask me do what.
Just be sales assistant,sell shoes,again -.-
I scare nothing cause I got experience before.
What I worried bout is just the transport.
Well,transport isn't a big problem.
I could go there by bus,KTM,LRT or whatever.

But guess what?
You will never know what's gonna happens.
May be the dangers are waiting for you?
I scared cause I go work alone.

Although Eunice will start working with me at 1th January.
But we have the shift time.
May be we're different session.
What can I do now is just pray more haha.
Wish me luck ^^

Well,I having another blog now.
But I'm not going to dump this blog.
If I do so,my English level would be pulled down.
However,my level now not so high right haha.

Uhm,was unhappy today.
Cause today was my unlucky day.
But I'm okay now.
Don't worry ^^

Tomorrow,the last paper.
Aim to get 5 marks!
Well,it's very high marks already.
Hate LK!

Do the best,bitch C:,
chiaumei.

中学生涯 -- 结束。

2010-12-17T01:23:00.000-08:00

终于，结束了。
五年了，有悲有喜。

我承认，不喜欢这间学校。
但我真的很喜欢里面的人儿。
我永远不会忘记和我的好朋友们相处的一点一滴。

小学的时候，我有三个死党。
现在，我有四个。
我们五个的性格都很不同。
但无可否认，我们都很善良 ^^

也许我们争吵过；
也许我们猜疑过彼此；
也许我们都曾忍受过对方的不足；
但这些算什么？
至少我们的心里，不曾忘过彼此，对吧？
我一直都这样的相信着。

不管以后会怎样，我都希望你们能幸福。
让我看到你们的笑容，不再把眼泪轻易地落下。
答应我，好吗？

对啊，就这样结束了。
在最后一刻，我还是会想起他。
当然，那只是做最后的回忆。
可笑的是，为什么就只有他?

其实，有很多事我都忘记了。
我忘记了我们的一点一滴。
我真的，再也想不起来了。
是好事吧？
至少，我不再为你而掉泪了。

现在关于爱情，我连想都不敢想了。
我只为我的前途而感到渺茫。
我到底该做些而什么？
讨厌自己容易被别人而左右我的思想。
但是，他们的意见的确是宝贵的。
我到底该，怎么办？

话说回来，我也很久没更新了。
不是因为考试，我没那么好学生 -.-
是想说的全都在脑里对自己说了。
等要更新时，才忘了自己到底该从何下手。

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顺便一提，今早在睡之前因某些事，我拿了张纸条并写了“我爱你”给我父母。
岂知我那没情趣的老妈子看了之后把它捏成一团，丢进垃圾桶里。
我醒来后还说我是不是得空没事做，写爽的。
然后我就问她我像不像在写遗书。（其实还蛮像的。）
她就只说了：Choi!
That's all ^^

巧儿，囧儿爱你们~^^,
chiaumei.

SPM Is Coming -_-

2010-11-11T14:53:00.000-08:00

SPM is coming soooooon Oh My God.
Very very very proud to say that I haven't prepare anything yet!
Okay,I think I should start my History revision from now on!
I totally don't know what it's talking bout.
Yet,I still keep ponteng ><
But,going school can't give you any help right?
Hmmm...

When it's sleeping.
Cute right?As it's owner :P

Shabu-shabued with family ^^

Before cut my fringe.

Huang & Jing er ^^

Lastly,wish all form 5 students good luck for SPM.
I think you all could do well than me.
Cause,you paid for that & I didn't.
Good luck guys!

Life,Love,Lies,
chiaumei.

结束了。

2010-11-07T07:46:00.000-08:00

演了那么多场戏，够了。
我真的受不了了！

为什么我总得在别人面前挂着微笑？
我以为我笑久了，就会习惯了。
原来，辛苦的只会是自己。

我不明白今天的我怎么了。
不小心得罪到你的话，抱歉。

我知道我不该这样。
或许是太累了，总爱胡思乱想。

真的很累。
精神上，肉体上，还有心。

我真的很需要一个人来让我依靠。
是你？是妳？
我真的不想再自己一个人去面对着一切了。
不想做女强人。

想要有人能让我撒娇；
想要有人能为我承担一切；
想要有人在我生气时让我乱打乱咬；
想要有人在我感觉到冷时给我个大大的拥抱；
想要有人我在做错事时笑笑的对我说没关系。

这就足够了。
算了，当我发酒癫。
过了今晚，一切就没事了。

发泄完毕，真爽 C:,
chiaumei.

Pica Day C:

2010-11-06T07:21:00.000-07:00

Midnight Party wow :P

Today was an usual Saturday for me.
Guess what?
I didn't get enough sleep cause I slept at 4a.m today.
Whatever,still have to wake up earlier then usual cause today was Saturday.
The day I have to eat lunch with family.

After I prepared myself,we went to eat with grandpa & grandma.
The wind there was strong.
Hardly to eat cause ya know,my hair -.-'

Well,pica time now C:
Enjoy & do give some comment ya ^^
Ps.Some pica facebook can't be seen c:

Aku ni 'Fei Mui' :C

Take me if I could be your girl ♥

Still,I want to be yours ♥

I know I'm chubby :C

You know you're amazing ♥

Live on my own way ♥

I wanna . . . ♥

I'm just a little girl ♥

Don't act cute please -.-'

You're suck!

Ahaha I know I'm hyper funny :P

Tell me I sweet or not?! OF COURSE c:

Already 17 years old woohoo ^^

I will show this face if I 'boh song' something or someone c:

Trying to be sexy but obviously I failed :C

Call me Sasa ♥

Why do my fringe growing so fast huh O.o

Lastly,
I got do my homework la -.-

Started to work tomorrow.
A bit nervous.
But I think I can handle it.
Hello,I worked as promoter before leh.
I got experience one eh.
So please,increase my salary laaaaaaaaaaaaaa hehe ^^

Got to go.
Buhbye.
Don't misssssssssssss me C:

Smileee c:,
chiaumei.

Thanks Kiki c:

2010-11-02T04:32:00.000-07:00

Was so tired in school today.
Whole day didn't sleep at all & went to school.
First time,new experience wow.
Actually nothing special,cause this year I already broke a lot of records.
Like,skip school for how many days huh?

Anyway,I was so lucky today.
Mr.Balan asked why I absent so many days & I just smiled.
Lucky he didn't scold or ask more.
Or else I GG!

Puan Azveen & Puan Khadijah pissed me off!
Fortunately my pierced ears saved me!
They asked whether I feel pain or not.
And they told me that one of the teachers said he/she saw me outside the school gate there but never come in school.
I was like:Huh? O.o
Then I asked:Is it me or Boon Ei?
Cause you know la,she & I always admitted as same person :S
Puan Khadijah then asked me is she did it before?
I said no & she asked:no or you don't know?
I said:I don't know.
However,I don't think it's both of us,right?

Benji Chung,my dear didi came to find me when math period.
He gave me the SPM timetable and asked me to fill up the paper.
I guess you guys already filled it.
After that I asked Sab to help me pass up to my form teacher.
Cause ya know,I have 'faceless' to face her for the reason that I absent so many days.

When I was doing my physics exercise,Sab came my class again.
She said teacher was angry & wanted me to see her.
I followed Sab & when I reached there she just asked me to write a letter.
If not,second warning letter is coming...
Help me,I don't know how to write a letter.
What to write? -.-'

But I was lucky right?
Never get scold c:

Lastly,I have to say thank you to Kiki.
Thanks for your present,I love it much.
Now I only know the most precious gift is memories ^^

Thanks a lot ♥

Lalalalala c:,
chiaumei.

Is Coming Back ... c:

2010-10-31T13:05:00.000-07:00

看完电影后，就去吃宵夜了。
Natalie suggested to go UMA RANI so we went.
没错我第一次去那里。
所以不要怪我不会 order -.-'

我们边吃边聊“人生大事”。
说是人生大事，还不是在烦毕业后要读什么课程。
可爱的煌呢，就一边答我一边看踢足球 -.-'
不过还算他有良心，不至于忽视我。
司机在那头已经昏昏欲睡了；
Natalie 就在 facebook-ing。

其实我都打算去读化妆美容课程了。
但因为妈咪的一句：喂，不如毕业后去读 account 咯。
搞得我心思思。
我想读是有原因的。
因为我爸老早就想要我读会计了。
因为这样以后能去公司帮他。
但我很了解自己的程度，我无法胜任。
所以我在想，不用读到很多，当个小小的会计师算不错了吧？
唉，我不知道。
对自己的前途，一片茫然 :(

吃饱后，大伙儿一起走去拿车。
那一段小路，我，很冷。
之后去 Natalie 家。
我们都很安静，因为她的家人全都睡着了，等下六点还要赶回乡下呢。
我们一个个轮流上完厕所后就关上房门聊天。
聊了一阵，忍不住去冰箱拿酒&香槟。
尝了一点酒，还不赖。
香槟嘛，也还好。
司机呢，一点都没碰到，倒头就睡了。
他一定是很累了，所以我们都没吵他。

大概四点的时候，我们就准备要回了。
其实当时的我们个个都要累垮了。
只是煌一个最精神！
都不懂他搞什么。

回家后，我妈也起来了。
我们七手八脚的拆开礼物纸。
然后很惊喜的看到我梦寐以求的“摩天轮”！
但当然，我没太多时间去惊喜，就倒头睡死过去了。
总结，真的很累。

今年的生日呢，真的比往年特别很多。
往年都是和家人度过的；而这回就是跟他们四个。
我很怀念去年呢。
去年我们一家三口，一起去餐厅，吃西餐，还有生日蛋糕，许愿。
我决定了，明年，我们也要这样！

不想要父母再给我红包了。
本人比较喜欢礼物。
就算是一张卡，我就已经心满意足了。
我这个人，很知足哦！^^

在此我要感谢所有送我这份礼物的人儿 ^^
我很喜欢，也第一次有美梦成真的感觉。
我会永远记得你们，我爱你们 c:

Lead me to the right way :),
chiaumei.

Chiau Mei,Happy Birthday c:

2010-10-30T03:49:00.000-07:00

说实在的，还没过今天的十二点之前，我心情超低落。
很久没这样了吧？
但一点都不值得怀念。

问我为什么，我又该如何说呢？
一切都是我自己的问题不是吗？
妈咪说得对，我妒忌心强。
这次很明显，又是自己的妒忌心作祟了。
但让我伤心的不是这一点。。。
而是，他的绝情。
原来在这世上，还有比我更绝情的人。

在此，我想向所有我伤害过的人说声对不起。
我并不知道，原来我的绝情能带给别人那么大的伤害。
谢谢你。
谢谢你总能教会我很多东西。

请别误会。
我不是还爱着你。
我只是，彻底的心碎了。
原来那么久了，我在你眼里，心里，什么都不是。
连一粒沙子都不如。
我并不稀罕在你心里我到底是你的谁。
因为在我心里，你也什么都不是了。

我没哭，更没掉泪。
我不准它掉下来，因为我知道那不值得。
这一刻我并不是坚强，我是觉悟了。

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好了，过了十二点，也就是我真正的生日了 ^^
很开心，收到很多朋友的祝福。
谢谢你们，让我微笑起来了。

Thanks Iven for your songs.
But you still owe me one!
Do what you had promised ya.

Thanks Natalie for your birthday song too.
I love you ^^

Thanks Chyen for talk with me till 3a.m.
Wow...so tired after that.
But I enjoyed c:

下午一点被妈咪吵醒去吃午餐。
通常在那么“早”睡的情况下，我一定要睡足十二个小时，也就是下午三点。
本人很心不甘，情不愿的起床。
梳洗完毕后，带着微肿的双眼去吃午餐。

一上车，爸爸就给了我一个红包，外加一盒蛋糕。
他说那是他朋友送我的。
Hmmm...是我最爱的 cheese cake!
不过并不是 original one,it mixed with chocolate!
味道有点怪，我不喜欢。
不过都是别人的心意，我也是很开心。

吃饱之后就回家。
在家很像收不了口，一直找东西吃。
我一直吃，妈咪就一直叫我肥婆。
是啦，我承认，我胖了很多。
但是现在的我哪会有动力去减肥啊。
又没男朋友，又没女朋友，keep 到那么苗条给谁看？哈哈。
Ps.这就是失败者之言。

接近九点，就去准备要和 Huang,Yien,Iven & Natalie 去看电影了。
由于比看电影的时间还早，我们就去了 Natalie 家集合。
我们把酒和香槟放在她的家，然后就出发了。
看了“Perfect Wedding”，蛮不错的。
我的徐子珊很性感！
很爱她 muackss ^^

由于看电影的时间是 11.55p.m.
所以接下来发生的事就要 post 在 31/10/10 的 post 咯。
敬请期待 :P

Thanks guys c:,
chiaumei.

Itchy - Itchy :(

2010-10-29T02:13:00.000-07:00

Skipped school again.
As a conclusion,I skipped school for this week!
How fun is it c:
Wait,don't blame me first,I will explain.
I don't go cause...
This week is birthday week!
Weee~ It's Huang's,father's & mine!

And GUESS WHAT?!
Tomorrow is my sweet 17 birthday.
Finally I'm 17 already.
Can drive but too bad,still can't watch some movies cause I'm still under 18 :(

However,I wish I could have an unforgettable birthday this year.
I don't know why this year I'm so excited for my birthday.
May be,this year is the last year in school & I have to leave my lovely friends.
I was wrong before.
I do need them much.
I love them c:

But I know,we will meet always.
Cause,all live so near ma haiyorr :P
Promise to celebrate birthday together after we graduated.
Till the day I meet my Mr.Right haha ^^

But as I know now,my babe-Kiki couldn't celebrate with me.
Well,just let it be.
I decided not to talk with her for _ _ seconds/minutes/hours/days/weeks/years.
You choose by yourself!

Feeling my whole body very itchy lately.
I complaint to my mum that she did not clean the house nicely.
She said:you itchy cause you're dirty & lazy!
What a good answer huh?

So today feeling the same too.
So I went to take a shower.
And,it felt better.
But it's still a bit itchy.
I think I will be a monkey soon.
Ps.A kawaii cute monkey ^^

Okay I'm just very excited right now.
MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!
Calm down Bitch! :P

I'm just an ordinary girl that you would fall for me easily c:,
chiaumei.

Happy Birthday Huang.

2010-10-25T01:49:00.000-07:00

The same tittle as last year.
I still remember the day I wished you.
Of course,this year would be the same.
I want you to live happily with your love & family c:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUDE :D

Best friends forever,BFF :),
chiaumei.

Graduation Day ♥

2010-10-24T11:06:00.000-07:00

Had a party of 5 Bestari on 22/10/10.
I enjoyed it.
Cause the food there was so delicious :)
Obviously I was joking haha.

I was happy to be with them.
I love my class,5 Bestari.
May be we are not the cleverest class in da school but I'm sure we are just like a big family!
We are all sad cause our 'Mummy' was gone.
I don't know what she's going but I'm sure we miss her a lot :(

I will always remember you guys.
No matter Chinese,Malay or Indians :)
We are all family rite?
I love you.

Had my school graduation day on 23/10/10.
The next day of the party.
I enjoyed it too.
Although I don't take much photos on that day,but I enjoyed it.
I will always remember the day when I was being with you all.
You warmed my heart c:

The only thing that I was sad for it is my friend,Kiki Siau,she absent.
I truly hope I could spend the day with her.
But it's okay,it's over.
What to do is just appreciate each other rite? :)

Lastly,for another friend,Iven.
Be happy always.
I'm always here for you.
Be tough dude! :)

I will try & I will success one day c:,
chiaumei.

Huey,Happy Birthday ♥

2010-10-12T07:18:00.000-07:00

I know I didn't play well.
But I did try my best.
I practiced hard & played hard!

I would like to say thank you to Eunice.
She helped me a lot.
And I will remember today forever.
We were sweating together & tried hard together.
Thanks to be patient to me mum :)

Lastly,Happy Birthday to Zhi Huey! :D

Love ya :D,
chiaumei.

想妳。

2010-10-08T10:13:00.000-07:00

深夜了。
很累，却不想睡。

我，想妳了。
我在等，一直在等。

但我知道，我只是在浪费自己的时间。
妳一定不希望我那么傻。
但我就是那么的傻。

这几天，我们都没联络彼此。
很像几个星期前所发生的一切都是一场梦。
如果那是梦，它是个美梦。

不晓得，那是怎么回事。
想知道，却又怕会受到伤害。
我知道我是如此的懦弱。
但也因为如此，现在的我还活得好好的。

以为看不到的，就是没发生过的。
总是不知道在我打着这些字时，那方的你在干什么。
也许，妳正睡得很熟，发了个很甜的梦；
也许，妳也像我想你一样正在想念着某人。

真的，很想妳。
每天至少会为妳而沉默十分钟。
之后，我就会微笑。
因为想妳，很幸福。

在这考试的季节，不知妳的心情是如何。
我希望快点过完，这样或许我们就能遇上。

我清楚明白我们的观念有点不同。
并不是所谓的‘两个世界的人’。
但请妳明白，那不是我的错，更不是妳的。
所有的错都来自于一个‘缘’字。
我们不是在不同的世界，只是在不同的环境地方。

我承认我不是小天使。
有时，我比恶魔还邪恶。
但我明白什么能让妳快乐，所以我为我自己邪恶的思想而感到愧疚。
我，只要你幸福。

妳知道吗？
我还蛮喜欢妳‘发神经’的时候。
这让我感觉到妳不在敷衍我。
也让我知道，妳是快乐的。

Me :)

I know that I'm fucking ugly :(

Was playing hard today :)

When I was tired :(

See my black-eyes-circle oh my gosh!

妳，无人可比 :)

chiaumei.

我们是朋友 :)

2010-09-24T10:22:00.000-07:00

我承认。
我承认至今我还未完全懂得什么叫作爱。
我只知道，我就是要对我喜欢的人好，为她付出所有。

或许别人都在我身后说些很难听的话。
但说实话，我接受得到。
毕竟这几年来我不是白混的。
我的心已懂得承受一次又一次的伤害。
现在已算是麻痹了吧。

我放得开，是因为我知道，她已经找到一个很好的人；
我学会祝福，是因为我知道，这是我对她爱的表现。
也许那不叫作爱；也许这一切只是崇拜。
也许。。。
这一切从来都只是个谎言。

无所谓，现在最重要的是，我们是朋友。
我从来都不知道拥有这样的一个朋友能让我的生活变得更加愉快。
仿佛这世界上有了她，其他朋友都变得不重要了。
请注意，我是说，仿佛。

总有一天我会大方的承认说，我是同性恋者 :),
chiaumei.

要懂得祝福 :)

2010-09-17T09:20:00.000-07:00

虽然很不舍；
虽然心很痛；
虽然呼吸困难；
虽然鼻头感觉很酸。。。
但我还是选择去祝福，祝福你们。

既然得不到，我就要学会去放手。
爱一个人，不是就得让她觉得幸福快乐吗？
我不希望给她的爱，是如此的沉重，让她觉得不舒服。
我要我爱的她，永远幸福快乐。
既然如此，我就要放她走。

不再无理取闹；
不再说让她难过的话；
不再纠缠着她；
但能让我们每天都联络吗？

我不贪心。
就算只是五分钟也好，至少让我知道我们之间，还是有联系的。
妳答应了，我很开心。
但有人告诉我，这会让妳更愧疚。
我不明白了，为什么？
因为这会让妳无法坦诚面对妳的另一半。

但要我放弃，我做不到。
我相信，妳不会骗她；
我知道，妳绝对没什么越轨的想法；
我明白，妳只爱她。

这世界上没有绝对。
也许在下一秒，很多事都改变了。
包括妳、我、她。。。

我们都要幸福 :),
chiaumei.

想哭。

2010-09-14T09:58:00.000-07:00

我想要的就只是你的挽留，有那么难。。。吗？
你现在就是我生活里的一部分。
我真的不能失去你。

今天还好有你。
有你陪着我的时间，我总是觉得很幸福，很满足。
再怎么沮丧，也都能露出笑容。

我承认，我很假。
我根本就无法接受，但却得装出一副很大方的样子。
我并不想做第三者，但我真的控制不了自己。
我真的很喜欢你。。。

我想我真的是变了。
我看到男生就想呕，很反感。
反而女生让我感觉到自在。

我想我会试着去听佳茗的话，用我所有对你的爱转去家人和朋友身上。
也许这样我会比较快乐。
也许这样你会比较轻松。
也许这样对我们大家都好。
也许。。。

下次请说你需要我，好吗？,

chiaumei.

心，痛！

2010-09-13T09:57:00.000-07:00

今天我做到了！
但是上天似乎在玩弄我，它不让我放下你。。。
我真的放不下。

我想了很多。
我知道这种关系不被认同。
我不在乎，只要你愿意。
但这一切，只是个美丽的梦。。。

我的心很痛.
但每次却只能忍耐。
因为你说过，讨厌被人说她的坏话。
所以，我被迫去认同她，认同你们。
真的很辛苦。。。

从以前到现在，我的努力都一一被否定。
我注定就是要失败的，不是吗？
说不是只是自欺欺人罢了。

不管你接不接受得到，我都会一样爱你。
我不介意被你忽略，不介意等待。
只要你还在我身边。

Good night my love :),
chiaumei.

习惯了有你的日子。

2010-09-12T10:45:00.000-07:00

每一分，每一秒，都好想你。
虽然拼命压抑自己的感觉，但还是忍不住想找你。
明明说好不再这样了，转过头却又忘了。

我想，我是喜欢上你了。
我想，我是爱上你了。
我想，我真的不能没有你。

我不要求多。
只希望，能每天在你身边，陪着你。
呃，忘了你不会需要我的。
那，就当做可怜我，陪我吧。
我很需要你。

脑海都有你。
无法摆脱。
我不是刻意如此，我也无法控制。
因为我真的喜欢你。。。

我想你 :(,
chiaumei.

I'm back :D

2010-09-09T08:44:00.000-07:00

I'm back I'm back I'm back!!!
Oh yea I'm back :D

Been busy working this few days.
Although it's tiring but I was enjoying it much!
I love to stay the every moment with Carmen Lee seriously.
She brights my life always.
I can't be moody in front of her.
No why,she has the magic :)

Oh ya,met a friend named Zhi Huey at the FRIM's activity few days ago.
I love her :)
She's just amazing and ya know,she's natural.
I never met someone like her before.
So proud to be her friend :D

Tomoro is public day but I still have to work.
So what?
I likey it :P

I love my friends,from my heart :),
chiaumei.

你，让我无法自拔 :)

2010-09-04T02:05:00.000-07:00

如果你问我，那是为什么，我无法回答．
如果你问我，那是如何的感觉，我选择沉默．
有些事，其实不必用言语来表达，用文字也一样．

喜欢，是一种很轻松的感觉；
爱，是一种很妙很炫的感觉．
我感受过，体会过．
所以我相信在座的每位也感觉过．

爱，是发自内心的．
它很简单，爱就爱，不爱就不爱．
但为什么当有些人爱上一个不爱她的人时，却要如此执着，放不下呢？
在人世间，爱就是如此的复杂．

我承认，我的爱已不像几年前般如此的单纯．
我要的不再是你的眼睛望着我，我要的已经是你的心永远要想着我！
我很贪婪，至少对于爱情，我就是如此．

我被多人深爱着．
不管是家人或是所谓的追求者．
家人，我当然爱．
至于追求者，说真的，我不曾心动过．
因为我的心一直在追求着那个我永远得不到的人．
试问我有错吗？

不是放不下，不是执着，不是钻牛角尖．
只是，我是真的爱了．

为了不让双方痛苦，我选择暂时性放弃．
我做到了，而且做得很出色．
但我不想这样，我不想把他当做是普通人．
我要他永远是最独特的，不管是在我心里，还是别人的眼里．
因为他值得．

也许你们不懂，但我心里明白，也了解．
我不需要你们的认同，因为你们也没资格批评他．
只有是最棒的人，才有资格去批评别人．
当然，没有人是最棒的．

还有，我想谢谢某人．
他告诉我，原来我们之间也可以如此的融洽．
不是融洽，该怎么说呢．．．？
反正就是很好就对了！
谢谢你，真的很谢谢你！
我们只要在你眼中是一对的那就够了！

我们永远，都要是一家人哦 :)

谢谢你如此的信任我，:)
chiaumei.

我要学会不再去在乎 :)

2010-09-01T07:58:00.000-07:00

你问我那么敏感的问题，你要我如何回答你？
说真的，我有点不开心。
但我想我长大了。
我学会控制自己的情绪。
尽管不开心、失望、愤怒，我还是笑了。

并不是我逞强，是我不希望你不开心。
我知道一旦我发脾气，我谁也不给面子。
当然，你也不例外。
所以，我不希望我会对你发脾气，让你不开心，让你讨厌。
我改了很多，只希望你和我在一起的时候，永远都是那么开心，舒服。

你无须明白我的心，只需好好照顾自己。
我不在的时候，希望你会想到我，哪怕只是一秒。
无缘无故不会想到我吧？
那如果看到可爱的猪或是什么动物之类的，你也可以把它想象成我。
只要是出自你的脑的，我都不会介意的。
你是只知道的 :)

你身上的味道总能让我陶醉 :),
chiaumei.

没我想象中的那么容易 :(

2010-08-31T09:54:00.000-07:00

我以为我行，我以为我可以。。。
但这一些，这一切，一点都不实际。
老实说，我不知道我还留恋些什么。
我只知道，如果生活少了你，一定会很无趣。
我想我只是习惯罢了。
我一时之间改不了这个习惯。
就像我很懒一样，永远改不了。

终于，有些改变。
很多事都不像以前那样有例外了。
在话筒听见你的声音时，没以前那乱怦的心跳声。
但难免在拨电话前有种按耐不住的兴奋。

我们彼此的时间都不多了。
我会珍惜，你也要。
珍惜一个，朋友。

试着感觉我，
chiaumei.

Numbers.

2010-08-27T03:31:00.000-07:00

Today is Friday.
I skipped school!
Never thought that I was lazy. . .

Wednesday,we didn't study the whole day for the talk.
Yesterday,I went for the B.C seminar.
And today,I skipped school.
Conclusion,I've been left my class my seat for three days!
Tomorrow is Saturday,I might going to school.
But ya know,I'm _ _ _ _.(Just fill in the blank by yourself -.-')

Anyway,the seminar was fun & I think I get something useful.
But trust me,I will forget it soon.
I became lazier & lazier day by day.
Could you save me?
Oh please,save me!

Get my book finally from Guan Guan.
And yeah,it's NUMBERS.
It attracted me cause I think the story is nice,attractive & mysterious.
It talked bout:

When a girl who called Jem looks in someone's eyes,she can see the date they will die since the day her mother died.

What you think bout that?
Nice?of course,that's my taste :)
I hope this book would not disappointed me.

Watching 《女人最痛》 & 《偷心大圣PS男》lately.
Do enjoyed.
Will be update often.Bye.

I know I'm not pretty.SO. . .WHAT?

What's the date of my death? :0,

chiaumei.

What The Heck :S

2010-08-17T05:43:00.000-07:00

Yea I lost it again!
Why me?!
Oh My God!
Yea,that's my fault,always my fault.
Why did I so careless?
But what I get if I take good care of it?
Still the same right?
Yea,SAME!
However,thanks Darling Sabeena Maureen to save my ears.
Thank you very much & I love you! :)
You brighten my day today.
Thanks very much!!!

As a conclusion,I was a little bit unhappy today.
But later,I found out it's not just a little bit,it's a lot.
What the hell that I did wrong in my past life?
How could you do this to me?
Am I deserve all of it?
If so,just tell me face-to-face or just hurt me in other ways like let me POKAI again.
But please do not hurt the most sensitive part of my body,my heart.
I know I'm not good enough er I mean the worst girl in the world.
But so what?
You think you very good?Very perfect?Oh hell no! You're not!
But peoples usually won't see the bad sides of themselves.
So what the hell I'm talking those non-sense here?
F*** Off!

I hope I could have my own business.
I don't really interested in the business that you're talking bout but I will help you if you need me.
But please,please let me to study what I truly want.
I promise I will do well.
That's my life & I could control it by myself.
I love you & you knew that.
So I'm willing to help or do whatever you want me to.
But please,give me some time to do what I fancy too！
I think I could do it well.
Do believe me.

I'm unhappy :(

I have to use to it :(,
chiaumei.

值得纪念的一天 :)

2010-08-14T09:20:00.000-07:00

昨天和 Kiki 贝贝去了 Jusco。
在那边走走下、买买下、吃吃下、拍拍下就回家了。
不过还蛮开心的。（如果没有人一直吓我的话！）
回到家上网打算上传照片，但 connection 有问题所以上不到。
拖到凌晨两点多才睡觉。

大约下午一点就被妈妈吵起来出去吃东西了。
我整个人是累到不行。
眼睛肿肿，黑眼圈深深！
不过还是得起来啦。
起来准备后就出去载外公外婆吃东西了。
老豆不在，因为他去钓鱼了。
他刚打电话来，说是有点晕啦，希望他没事。

吃饱后,就陪妈咪去买东西。
本来打算买完后就回家的，不过我妈咪她衰多口，顺口就说不如去看电影。
哇，顿时我的心情想开了几朵花这样，兴奋得不得了！
最后她给我烦到答应我去咯。
说真的，我们是第一次一起去 Jusco 看戏咯。

去到那里，我就说要看《翡翠明珠》，因为昨天看不到。
这套戏还不错啦，林峰很帅 ♥

然后。。。不想写了。

Nice day...? :0,
chiaumei.

Happy Birthday to my Kiki :D

2010-08-10T05:38:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Kiki ♥
Wish you everything.
Be happy & healthy :)
Love you.

Of course,today's Johee birthday too.
Happy Birthday!
Wish you all the best! :)

Love you all,
chiaumei.

Birthday Celebration :)

2010-08-07T08:41:00.000-07:00

Yea,today was Kiki's & Hee Hee's birthday celebration.
Took a lot of photos.
We were very happy.
And I hope we could gather like today after we left school.

Lastly,I would like to know that whether my Kiki like my present or not.
I hope you Love it :D

Sorry for those who didn't go for the party.
I was so sorry bout that.
But yet,you're still my friends :)

I like you cause you're my friends :),
chiaumei.

Ello :)

2010-08-05T07:56:00.000-07:00

Hello,I'm back :)
Miss me?
I know you don't la.

My schedule was fulled this week.
Supposed to go Carmen's house this Sunday but now I'm not sure already.
Cause my mom said we may going to somewhere...?IDK la.
But if we do,I sure will post photos up :)

Nothing changed lately.
Only one thing,the thing I care a lot.
My mind finally opened.
I knew what to do is good for me.
So,I decide not to miss the guy anymore.
Well may be I will miss him but hey,just as a friend okay? :)

I'm single now but not available.
I just found out it's so hard to have a relationship.
Er I mean it's wasting time,wasting your energy or something else.
But I have to admit that it brings advantages too.
Like,You would become happier,prettier or whatever you can list it out.
Anyway,in my case,I'm not going to let those complicated relationship
spoil my student's life.
May be I may available after I left school or never in a relationship.
If like that,I am sure I would be a rich woman!
Waoh,good idea!
Might think twice bout it :P

I do love myself now.
I hate the old past me.
If you're one of my close friend,I'm sure you will know bout the reasons :)

School seems like fun for me lately.
And I found out I love my friends!
They're always the greatest one!
Well,may be some of them still not my cup of teas .
But nevermind,ignore bout it :)

Study,study,study...? :),
chiaumei.

Tagged by Helen Babe ♥

2010-08-03T07:05:00.000-07:00

幸福热气球：第一阶段

1. 绰号：Chiaumei Sulli Sasa(newest :P)

2. 星座：天蝎座

3. 生日：30/10/1993

4. 兴趣：Dance,take photos & hang out with the babes and dudes.

5. 血型：O

6. 最宝贵的东西：Family

7. 最讨厌的东西：Cockroach

幸福热气球：第二阶段

1. 有喜欢的人吗：I don't know whether I still love him or not.

2. 有交往吗：Nope.

3. 幸福吗：-.-'

4. 他很爱你吗：Of course not.

5. 如果你有勇气最想做什么：Rape him :P

幸福热气球：第三阶段

1. 你被谁点：Beloved Helen babe ♥

2. 他是你的谁：My babe :)

3. 他的个性是：Nice & Funny.

4. 他长得怎样：Cute,adorable & lovely :)

5. 跟他认识多久: Many years already :)

6. 你想跟他说什么：Love you ♥

7. 如果他变成你的情人: Love her till the end of my life :)

幸福热气球：第四阶段

1. 最爱的音乐 : Depends.

2. 最爱的季节 : Winter.

3. 最爱的卡通：Totally Spies.

4. 最爱的颜色：Purple.

5. 最想去的国家：Taiwan.

6. 最爱的水果：All.

7. 最爱的饮料：Water?haha

8. 最爱的人：My family :)

幸福热气球：第五阶段

1. 你很爱哭吗 : Nope.

2. 你很爱笑吗：Not really.

3. 你是很有信心的人吗： Nope.

4. 你想要怎样的生活：The life which could live with my family forever :)

5. 你喜欢自己吗: Sometime.

7. 你喜欢睡觉吗：I rather to use my time to online :P

8. 你喜欢唱歌吗：Ikut mood aku :P

幸福热气球：第六阶段开始点名：
Only Kiki Siau :)

I know I can do it :),
chiaumei.

What to do? :(

2010-07-23T04:46:00.000-07:00

Well,I know I didn't update for a long time.
Too busy.
But actually I don't know what I was busy for.
However,just forget bout it.

Something happened today.
Mizz Aimi cried in front of us when chemistry periods today.
Just because the stupid lousy LK teacher don't let us out when it's chemistry periods.
And it caused all of us late to go to the lab.
Mizz Aimi said she had been waited for us about half an hour.
She was so sad.
Actually I prefer teachers scold us than cry in front of us.
Cause I will feel guilty & listen what they said like a puppy.
Okay,I promise I will try to do well for the SPM.

The last two periods before school finished was Add Math period.
Sir asked us to take out the vector's papers that he gave us before to check whether we done it or not.
I was so scared cause I didn't do at all.
I was not lazy anyway but I truly don't know how to do.
I was waiting for the death that time.
But when my turns,he told the all class that he tak sampai hati to beat me
cause I looked lovely :S
Ps.He didn't check my papers at all! Thanks God :)
I knew my choice is correct to make him becomes my darling :P

After school,went to U.B.C for the rehearsal.
We don't dance Nu Abo during that time but Chu cause we're still practicing the dance.
That Amber said he wanted to quit cause he has no time & tired.
I felt a bit disappointed cause I thought we could dance till the last.
But too bad,we can't.
So at last,we decided to dance Nu Abo & Nobody without Amber.
Waiting for it?Yea,of course you have to :P

Oh ya,have to thanks Sabeena here to be my camera girl today.
She helped me to take a lot of photos with my friends.
But I still got a lot friends to take photos with.
Might bring camera to school again next Monday.
Of course,I will find more teachers to take photos with me.
Cause ya know I gonna graduate soon.
I will gonna miss them especially the people that I like.
Will upload those photos to FB soon :)

After that,went Brem mall to watch movie with my dudes.
(Dad fecthed us there,thanks muackss :D)
They are Sim Yien Yien,Huang,Jing Er,Apple Lai & Tan Yong.
We wanted to watch Despicable Me but we lated.
The next show is at 6.45p.m.
Huang was not allowed toback home late.
I begged him for that but he truly can't.
So we decided to go Jusco for the 《人间喜剧》 which is at 4.10p.m. by bus.
But before that,we went to Wong Kok for lunch.
Well it's only my lunch.
Just because they already went to 新嘉喜 to had their lunch while I was in school.
I ate a bowl of rice with soup.
It tasted good I think.

Due to my slowliness,we lated again.
We reached there at 4.20p.m.
However,we bought tickets.
Don't blame me please.
The soup was so hot & I had to eat it slowly or my tounge will get burned.
The movie was nice after all.
It's so funny.
I like comedies & of course horror movies which is watch with me Yuky babe.

After the movie,Apple Lai went home & we waited for my dad to fetch us back.
Me,Huang,Jing Er & Yien Yien waited at outside for a long time.
But still,my dad hadn't showed up yet.
I used Huang's phone to miss call him but he didn't call back.
I was so worried cause he seldom to be like that.
He will call back the numbers immediately when he receives the calls.
I started to panic & think of the negative side.
I wondered if he get in any accident while on the way.
But lucky he called back finally.
He said he can't hear the phone rang.
Thanks God :D
Anyway,we back home safely.
Again,my headache came back to find me.
It's so weird to tell that my head will pain whenever I go Jusco.
May be I was not enough sleep on yesterday cause I fell asleep at 1a.m something this morning.
I didn't mean it but I slept in the evening.
That's why :S

And now,I feel better.
Blogging with mixed feelings.
There are happy,sadly.
I know what happened on me.
Just because I heard something in school.
Something that hurt my heart deep deep.

You know that I always love you.
I don't want to hurt you.
But I know I can't indulgence you.
I want you to know the real me.
I want you to understand.
But you can't.

Do you know how I feel when I heard that?
I felt sad.
I wanted to avoid this topic but I can't.
That's not my business anyway.
But it truly hurt me.

Guys,please stop to do this to me.
No matter how bad did I treat you before but please,you can make fun of me but don't do or say anything that related to him.
I know you guys didn't mean it & do not know what's happening.
But try to observe my expressions while talking.
Thanks.

Sometime,I think I could be stay with others.
I wanted to.
I wanted to leave you.
Leave you far away.
Take back my heart then keep it or give it to the other else.
But not you.
Cause you're not going to appreciate it for-ever.
Set me free,let me go :'(

I love you more than you could expected :(,
chiaumei.

自由。

2010-07-12T10:10:00.000-07:00

我累了。
我真的很累。
怎么无论做什么都要被受控制？
怎么做什么事都得看别人的脸色？
一点言论自由都没有吗？
在这里我想说：
这是我的部落格！！！
This is my blog!!!
你他妈不爽我写什么是你家的事！
别想控制我的思想，生活！

I want you back & stay with me :),
chiaumei.

Sick :(

2010-07-07T05:28:00.000-07:00

其实昨天在学校我就开始发烧了。
我只是死撑到放学，最后不得不 skip 掉华文课。
由于跟我妈赌气，所以我一回到家不吃药，就回房间睡了。
睡到差不多七点才起床。
厉害吧？
醒来时，我妈才懂我病了。
然后她就叫我快点吃药。
哇，当时我的脸黑红色的咯。
自己看到都恐怖。
休息一阵子，出了一身汗后，我感觉好多了。
然后就去冲凉洗头咯。

今天早上起来时退烧了，我就照常去学校了。
怎知一去到学校，又感觉到自己的身体烧烧的。
我真怀疑自己的八字是否跟学校的八字相冲！
撑到 LK 节时，我知道我自己不行了。
就跟文杰借了电话联络我爸来接我。（谢啦 ^^）

回到家吃了粥 & 药，我又去睡觉了。
睡觉时又出了一身汗。
醒来时差不多六点，又吃粥，吃药，最后就上网啦。

希望明天我能康复，因为我现在不能病！
我还有很多是还没完成。
我还有舞蹈比赛呢！
绝不能害到我的组员。
要病就下个星期吧，这个星期很忙！

以下的内容是给某个我很想他死的人。（想看就看，不想看就 skip。）

你知不知道你真的很过分？
你以为全世界的人就得迁就你吗？
我告诉你，他们只是不想多事罢了。
可是那是他们的事。
他们想放纵你是他们自己犯贱。
但我不是，你休想我会任你随意摆布！
我并不讨厌你，你是知道的。
我只是很你！恨你入骨！
每天只会挑剔别人，你以为自己很好啊？
心情好的时候就怎样也可以；不好时不小心看你 0.00000000001秒都会给你骂！
你以为你是谁哦？
什么美男子？
有谁会去看你吗？
你顶着我们的视线还好意思说！

请告诉我，什么才叫做严重？
要我死了，才算严重吗？
自己眼红就讲。
父母没我的那么好就讲。
不用讲那些话来讽刺人，伤人。
我告诉你，我不是那种会做作的女生！
更不是你所认识的那种人！
Ops,忘记了。
其实我跟你不是很熟罢了。
是你自己来跟我 lan 熟！
好心你啦，你有什么资格当我的朋友？
你连朋友的定义是什么你也不知道！
等你出了社会后你就会知道了。
你就会知道现在你周围的朋友是多么疼你的！
你一定会后悔！

你知道吗？
我忍你很久了！
我什么都没说不代表我好欺负！
只是你重来都不懂我脑里正在想些什么。
没错，我承认我很毒。
毒到你根本无法想象！
我就看你几时才发觉你脑袋正带着无数个绿帽！
到时你就欲哭无泪了！
放心，没有人会同情你的。
所以到时你可以尽情的哭哦！
保证不在你面前笑你！:)

最后一点，少在我面前耍帅了。
呃，我是说，少做那些恶心的动作了。
每看一次都想呕。
我想我应该是每天对着你我才会生病的吧？
我知道人长得不帅或不美不是一种罪。
但如果你没这先天的条件，就应该用后天来补上啊！
还有，请尊重一下女性。
我知道在你眼里我不是个女的，但很抱歉，我的确是。
请公私分明，不要那么幼稚好吗？
开玩笑归开玩笑，要懂分寸！

正如我，你们说我脾气难搞，我也佷努力地再改了啊。
而且我觉得我自己成功了。
我不再像以前那样情绪化。
什么事情都笑笑的带过。
因为我知道并不是所有人都会包容我。
我也学会凡事不斤斤计较了。
尽管我不知道我当初的决定是否正确，我只希望不会再让别人为难。
有什么不开心的，对自己发脾气一下子后就算了。
这样不是很好吗？

--完--

好了，发泄完了。
最后还是想说，去死吧！
真不该让你来弄脏我的部落格！

Yes,you're the one & only one :),
chiaumei.

Happy Birthday My Dear Luna ♥

2010-07-05T05:18:00.000-07:00

Carmen,Happy Birthday ♥
Wish you all the best;
Take care of your body;
Rest whenever you feel tired;
Try to miss me if you feel sad cause I'll always by your side :D

Had a birthday celebration for my dear daughter today in Airobic Room.
There are three person involved that's me,Mummy & Gugu :)
I was so excited cause I love to give people surprise :)
Too bad Amber was not coming.
However,we still enjoyed the moment.
We ate together & our faces became dirty because of the cake.
We're not kids ok?
Just we had no spoons,forks to enjoy the cake.
And of course,we took photos!
Will upload it on facebook soon :)

I love you guys :),
chiaumei.

If.

2010-07-04T09:44:00.000-07:00

Dad left to ~~IDON'TKNOWWHERE~~ for fishing on this morning.
So he won't be at home tonight & will be back on tomorrow night.
I do miss him a lot.
Anyway,I wish he's having a good time now :)

Had a dream yesterday.
I hope the sweetest dream could comes true.
I really wish that you would be shy in front of me.
Anyway,I just want you to know that ILY ♥

And sorry my Helen babe.
I truly want to write out the dream for you.
But I cant.
Cause it was blurred.
However,It's not as scary as yours.
So just forget bout it :)

No tuition today cause Jason's car got problem.
Actually he could tells us earlier one.
He called and told us after we all reached.
What the hell -.-'

Went to KFC with mom for dinner & I met Chyen there.
I'm not sure it counted as DINNER or not.
Cause before that,I ate a lot :P
I knew that I gained weight.
And I hope I could loss some.
I will try my best.
I truly can't let myself gemuk lagi.
Or else I may go commit suicide :(

Have to wake up for dance practice tomoro at 11.00a.m.
Then go tuition at 3p.m.
Means there's no any holiday for me :(
Argh! Sometimes I hate busy life!
And,due to my laziness,I still haven't finish my homeworks yet.
Hooray! -.-'

IF :(,
chiaumei.

Carnival's Day :)

2010-07-03T08:35:00.001-07:00

Er sorry,I broke my promise again :(
I didn't post my results out.
Anyway,an excuse here.
I'm just don't want to pollute your eyes cause it's sucks!
What a good excuse huh? -.-'

Well,today is my school's Carnival.
I went there by 9++a.m. with Eunice.
Er you can call her Vic or my mummy whatever you want haha :)
When we reached,we rushed to MPV.
After that,we waited people on the yellow bench.
Met Sheau Feng there,miss her a lot :D
Then ... ... ( I skipped.)

After the Carnival,went Mummy's house for party!
And you guess what?!
We met four 'intruders' there.
That's cockroachs!
It's damn scary you know?
Yuck!

After the lunch,played & watched.
And my bad Daddy keep hitting my head!
How pity I was.
Anyway,the conclusion for today is I VERY HAPPY.
I felt that we're not friends anymore but FAMILY!
I like that feeling actually.
I just found out that how good they are.
I mean friends are important.
Finally I agree with that :)

后记：
我告诉你，做人不可以那么自私的！（除非你不是人。）
你都得到她的全部了，就不能让点时间给我们吗？
拜托你不要那么幼稚好吗？
你根本不会在乎别人的感受。
你只希望会有人来哄你，你有想过别人的感受吗？
发生什么事就只会怪别人，那么你自己就没有责任？
以后你生育有问题，就是医生的错？
哈，太可笑了！
你要怎样是你的事我管不着，但我就是不准你伤害我最在乎的人！
你妈的XXX，你以为我这样得空来写你啊？
我真的是太看不过眼了！
如果今天真的发生了什么意外，你来负责吗？
到时你说你如何后悔都不能弥补了！
或许你觉得你自己没错，那样也对，有人会说自己错的吗？
更何况那是你？
以后再敢乱来，我诅咒你祖宗十八代！
注：若用词不当请多多包涵，因为我实在太气了！

I owned you in my heart :D,
chiaumei.

I felt safe with you :D

2010-07-02T08:28:00.000-07:00

How am I going to live without you?
Do you know that I don't wanna to leave you for ever?
You made me felt safe & happy all the time when we're being together.
Could we stop in the moment & stay together?
I wish we could.
I miss you.
I ♥ YOU

I don't care what they talking bout me;I love you :D,
chiaumei.

I don't care.

2010-06-30T00:50:00.000-07:00

Why nobody tell me that today is Hari Koperasi?
If I knew,I will be absent.
Damn it.

However,I felt happy today.
Well,not super happy but just,happy.
I wonder if we got another chance to spend the time together like today or not.
I wish we have.

It's Open School tomorrow.
Will post my results here tomorrow.
And I will be free of duty!
Hooray!

我不明白你这样是什么意思。
我也不想明白。
你让我觉得自己很贱！
我告诉你，世界上没有少了谁就不能活的道理。
没有了你，我还能活得好好的！
只要我想。。。就一定能！
你以为你自己是什么货色？
你真的有如此完美吗？
就算是，你也配不上我吧？！

你可以不要那么令人讨厌吗？
你真的以为我什么事都会让你，原谅你吗？
如果是这样你就错了！
我们什么关系都没有！
照理来说，你这样对我，我还可以告你呢！

对不起，我做不到。。。
算啦，今天有少少的不开心。
抱怨够了。

你连狗都不如,
chiaumei.

温心慈善 ♥

2010-06-26T11:10:00.000-07:00

今天一早就被吵起来练舞了。
其实我真的很累。
我习惯把所有星期一至星期五的睡觉量放在星期六。
所以星期六我必须睡超过十二个小时。
不过今天还是不能。
算了，谁叫我为我们的组如此的掏心掏肺呢？

在等着 Victoria 的同时，我们又开始说那些故事了。
今天 Krystal 也在，她也很怕哦！哈哈。
刚好 Yuky 打电话来，吓到我们全部大喊！
认识我的人应该都知道我是放什么电话铃声吧？
其实我觉得还蛮可爱的 :D

午餐后，去了茜茜家。
真的是顶她不顺。
到了那里才跟我说要换黑衣和长裤。
我没带所以她就借我咯。

之后她哥载我们去中华。
在那里我认出了 Evon 以前的老同学 - 温思颖。
我真的太佩服我自己了！
这样都认得出。
没办法，人聪明就是这样 :P

到了那里，......。
（很多小插曲，省略它了。）
总之，除了卖笑就是卖笑。
身为工作人员的我们，我认为如果有更多工作会更有意义。
在那里我觉得我快要发霉了。
但是无可否认的，今天是一个美丽且有意义的夜晚。

最后，工作人员们拿了奖杯就回家了。
真没想到工作人员也会有奖杯，哈哈。

如果你在，多好，
chiaumei.

讨厌自己! :'(

2010-06-25T04:38:00.000-07:00

其实今天我不是很开心。。。

今天一早到学校，感觉很舒服。
因为空气凉凉的。
还好我有穿夹克，不然一定冷死。

我的心情到 LK 节为止都很好。
只是，他无意间说了一句话，顿时我的心情跌入谷底。
那一刻，我觉得我快哭出来了。。。
我突然觉得自己很笨很呆！
我以为我可以忘记，但原来我一直都是在逃避！

最近的我很快乐，很乐观。
那是因为有些事我想通了。
有些是我也以为我想通了，但那全都是以为！
我真的。。。放不下。
我很痛苦。
我真的不想因为这些事让我的生活变得不快乐！
我不想！
但又能怎样呢？
我就是放不下。。。

我很天真。
我相信我比谁都天真。
我讨厌那些根本不切实际的爱情连续剧！
它们给了我希望，我深深的相信。
但为什么我却不相信他们说给我的事实？
我真的是太死心眼了！

我知道一切都是我的错。
麻雀是不可能变凤凰的。
永远不会。
我拿什么来赢？没有。
我很失败。

我想说我恨你！
但我做不到！
如果要我去恨你，那我宁愿选择去死！
虽然有时会说讨厌你之类的话，但那些都只是气话！

虽然我知道你不是故意的，你什么都不知道。
但是我真的很希望，在我们的谈话里没有第三者。
你可以说你的事，甚至可以打我骂我，但我不想要有第三者介入。
不然我会觉得自己才是那个第三者。

因为你，我不敢去赌，不敢去试。
我不想再做伤害自己和别人的事。
虽然，我从来没伤害过任何人。
第一次，我只是和小孩子玩游戏；
第二次，我只是在帮朋友；
最后一次，是他先选择放弃。
这样也好，因为我后悔了。
你们要说我是在找借口也好，但确实这就是事情的真相。

除了你，没有人适合我；
但除了我，谁都适合你。
说这句话时，我真的觉得很可悲。。。
想哭，但却答应自己不再为你而哭。
我真的哭累了。
就像连哭都无法表达我那悲伤的心情。
有谁能了解呢？

我需要一个肩膀。
管他是什么人，只要能静静地听我诉苦，我就很满足了。
爱情事，我真的不想管了。
但为什么，我还是忘不了。。。你？

最让我觉得痛苦的是为什么没有人支持我？
就算告诉我一个美丽的谎言也好啊。
我也甘愿。
我要的只是一个认同我的人罢了。
因为，我真的很辛苦。

的确，忙碌的生活能让我暂时放下一切。
没想到贝贝的方法还真好用！
衰就是衰在我是个懒人，总想让自己轻松，天塌下来当被盖！
所以，无时无刻都在想些烦事！

我真的真的真的以为自己不在乎了，放下了。
但我没有！真的不能。
我该怎么办？
我真想每天快快乐乐的生活。
真的很想笑着跟你说再见。
拜托。

放学后，去了华文学会讨论欢送会的事情。
其实都不用我管的，因为是要欢送我们中五的学生啊！
但没办法，谁叫我是组长！
注意哦，我不是在炫耀。（也没有东西好炫耀的不是吗？哈哈。）

回家吃饱后，下楼去和我亲爱的组员们练舞。
对了，我们一起开了一个 Group 在 Facebook 名为 Satis5。
觉得如何？不错吧 ^^
比赛完毕后就会公开给大家了。
那里有很多我们练舞的 videos 哦！
期待吧？
不期待的请装作很期待可以吗？
就当是逗我开心也好吧。
哈哈。

练不到一阵子，我们就坐下休息了。
由于是读书时间，所以我们大家都很累，都没力气跳了。
坐下后我们就开始聊天。
最后聊到讲鬼故事收场！
那个死 Amber 啊，一直吓我们哦！
害得我和 Luna 吓到大喊大叫！
至于我嘛，就一直吓 Victoria 咯。
她真的很好玩 :P

如果贝贝在的话她一定很开心的。
因为我们都喜欢听 & 看啊。
我想这就是我们那么合得来的原因之一吧。
想你哦~ :D

好啦，说完后才开始担心如何回家。
你要我自己走上楼搭电梯？NO! NEVER!
打死我都不要。
最后当然是他们陪我啦。
谢谢哦 :)

我一定会永远记住你们的。
因为你们带给了我很多快乐。
你们也要记得我哦。
一定很容易吧。
我的样子不会变的，年年十二岁！:P
真不要脸！哈哈。

呃，也对不起我的映瑾宝贝啦。
明天不能去你学校。
我真的是太忙太烦了。
有机会再见吧！:)

成绩出炉了！
很快就会放上来。
等我哦。

离开我的生活，好吗？:(,
chiaumei.

School Re-open :(

2010-06-21T07:26:00.000-07:00

Went the four-school last Saturday.
Supposed to update & upload the photos that we took together but I didn't.
Cause I was so tired & lazy.
It's okay I will upload it soon.
Be patient guys :)

Yea,school re-open!
Damn it!
I heard a sound from someone,somewhere.
It said,'Welcome back to the hell'...
I bet you heard it too -.-'

Thanks my sayang for lend me the add math project.
I done half & my hand is so painful now.
I wish teacher will not ask for it tomoro.

Oh ya,I get 81% for my B.I paper!
Do you think it's good enough?
No No No,I have to study hard to increase my marks for the next exam.
Ps.I was not showing off or what,I'm just happy & proud of myself :)

I felt that!
I felt that the emo-girl that inside my body shouted out loud!
Se wanted to come out.
But she couldn't cause I'm controlling it.
I don't know how long I could stand for it.
I wish she will never came back.
I hate her but at the same time,she makes me feel that I'm still alive.

Currently watching 谈情说案，蒲松龄 & 天国的嫁衣.
Waoh,so much drama huh?
Sei leng mui,this year is SPM year leh.
So what?! :P

Happy Father's Day!(sorry I'm late) :),
chiaumei.

Dear Han Geng :D

2010-06-17T10:07:00.000-07:00

Well well well,I found a new dear ♥ :D
Happy for me?Sure sure :P

Do you guys know who's Han Geng?
He's one of the member of Super Junior & the leader of Super Junior M.
But I heard Carmen said that he's already quit from this both groups.
I hope that's not true!
But if that was,so what?!
I still love him muackss ♥

Hmmm...I was so happy today.
After practice dance,went Yong Jian & Yuky's house took papers & books.
Then we went to eat lunch.
After that,went Krystal (Li Xin)'s house to choose & edit songs.
We had our fun there!
Too bad my Nickie was out of battery,if not I sure take a lot of photos for us! :)
Anyway,I felt happy with them & I can tell that I love you all!
Loving Luna,Victoria,Krystal & Amber.
Sulli's life became colourful & wonderful that's because of you! :D

Reactive my Sulli's account.
Anyone can add me there if you dislike or hate Chiaumei.
Hate Sulli?Add Chiaumei then :P
Chiaumei Lee or Sulli Lee
Check it out yo~^^

Tomoro will be practice in school's stage.
Excited :D

Nu Abo,nice :),
chiaumei.

Time.

2010-06-14T09:10:00.000-07:00

Went Qing Qing's birthday celebration yesterday at Gombak.
A lot of relatives went there.
It's have been a long time that we met together after tai ma passed away.
Miss that moment.
We chit-chat there and I took some photos.
Lazy to upload it.
May upload to FB if I'm free.

I'm not going to tell why I named my boubui as Nickie.
Cause I think you're smart person so I am willing to give you more time to think bout it.
Haha :P

How come the times in holidays passed faster than the times in school day?
This week is the last week for holidays.
I don't want!
But I can't control it rite?

I don't really enjoy my holidays actually.
Like I never had it.
I almost woke up early for the dance everyday.
I know there's no problem for those 'normal people'.
But not for me.
As you know,I used to sleep at 2 or 3a.m. during holidays.
Could you just imagine that a person who's only sleep for few hours &
still have to use a lot of energy to dance AND without having his/her breakfast? O.o
You can't.
But I did it!
Oh Hell,how proud I was -.-'
Anyway I deserve it rite?haha.
I should not complain in here.
Bla bla bla...

However,I don't wake up for dance today.
Just because I was not feeling well.
Yea,my period coming.
And thanks for Yuky,my tummy was pain like hell.
But it's much more better after I took my shower.

After that,went tuition.
Yong Jian sat beside me during tuition.
We talked a lot 38 things so just ignore bout it.
After tuition,back home online watched drama.

I started to love 林峰 after watch “谈情说案”.
He's such a gentleman & he's the guy that I want in the drama.
Of course,I like 杨怡 too.
She's so gorgeous .
They're so match.
Love them :)

After finished the 14th episode,went to take shower.
And now,I'm going to watch the new drama - “蒲松龄”.
I think it's not bad.
Hope so.

May go to Yong Jian's house for add math project tomoro.
Ps.Saya langsung tak tau ada hal ini before he told me that -.-'

Sometime I was a sweetie but sometime I was a bitch & somehow you still like me :),
chiaumei.

Hey Nickie :D

2010-06-12T23:18:00.000-07:00

Yea,I named my lovely camera as Nickie already.
Do you know why?
I bet you don't want to know cause it's so '~~BOOM~~' anyway :P

After lunch stayed in home with dad while mom went to play mahjong.
I had nothing to do beside watched TV.
I ate a lot of snacks & ice-cream.
Ya I know IT'S THE TIME TO KEEP-FIT!
Don't need to remind me.
But it's hard you know?
Can you just stop a pig not to eat for one minutes?
You can't rite?
And ya,I'm the pig.
I love to sleep to eat to play but hate to stand to walk to run.
So what can I do to decrease my weight & my super duper triple chubby face?
Please find a method to help me please :(

Any method please contact me.
My phone no. is 01x-6xx1x5x.
Fill in the blank by yourself.
If you success,then you're the most lucky person in the world.
Ps.Just for those person who does not has my no.,others please do not try & act like you're truly lucky :P

I like people call me 'leng lui' :),
chiaumei.

Ops! :0

2010-06-10T10:24:00.000-07:00

Get a new camera from my dad yesterday :)
I was so so so happy & excited.
I do love my dad so so much.
He always give surprise for me.
What can I do to repay him?
I could'nt give him my good results though.
Well,I will be your good daughter forever!!! :D

A lot of events happened lately.
Well,please forgive my laziness.
I never updated my blog for almost ___.
Sorry,I didn't count it.
But I'm sure it's long time already rite?

Actually I got nothing to update also.
Just having a good news here.
I found back my best friend already.
Yea,I found.
We don't mention bout the past cause we know once we talk bout it,
it will spoil everything.
So we chose to be silent.
Trying hard to return to the past.
And we did it.
Nothing changed but only the person & the situation that we stay.
However,I have a wish.
Yuky,I hope we could be the best friends forever but not only for few years.
Promise not to argue anymore eh?
Kiss me here if you agree with me :P

Shok Mun said wanted to quit from the dancing competition.
I wish Yuky could join us.
But I knew she lack of time.
Go dating also tak boleh.
We will discuss it tomoro.
Hope we could find a most suitable person or she stays.

Lastly,Helen babe ar,don't think too much ya.
Try to give him time.
I think he truly busy.
However,think positively ya.

Woohoo camera camera camera,should I give you a name :0,
chiaumei.

Happy Birthday my Helen babe :D

2010-06-01T23:50:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to You,
Happy Birthday to You,
Happy Birthday to my babe,
Happy Birthday to You!
Babe,I wish you for everything.
Like find a good boyfriend;
Can drive soon;
Do well in your SPM;
And of course,found a job & work with me during this holidays :P

Happy everyday :),
chiaumei.

成功的第一步？

2010-05-31T08:49:00.000-07:00

今天最容易的 paper 就是 sivik 了。
废话，哈哈。

考着试的时候突然想起以前的事。
无可否认的，我越想越气。
不过在我气了几分钟后，我压抑着了。
我学会微笑，向从前说再见。

现在的我只希望把人际关系打好。
那对我而言是有利而无弊的。
想让自己开心，首先就得让你身边的人开心。
别老是记着别人对你多差，他们对你好的时候，你有珍惜过吗？

听说 S.C. Lee 生病了。
要好好休息啊。
毕竟都上了年纪了。

谁这个星期六要陪我去弄头发啊？
要留言哦 :)

幻想总是最美好的 :),
chiaumei.

Greedy Lady.

2010-05-26T06:47:00.000-07:00

今天的数学实在是太粗心了！
不可原谅！
就罚我，早点去睡觉！
哈哈，很烂吧？
不过说真的，真的得早点睡。
明天早点起来读道德。
别看得它好像很容易，一不小心可能会要了你的命！

我觉得所有的老师都对我很好耶。
就像 Cikgu Fatimah 这样，今天特地改我的先叻。
不过这也不太好了，太刺激我了！
哈哈。
所以说咯，扮好学生是有好处的。
至少不必被老师针对，难道不是吗？嘻嘻。

回家后，吃午餐，看戏，上网，再看戏。
之后就去冲凉准备去化妆。
今天早很多耶，差点赶不及！
不过最后还是给我赶上了。

照照 :D

:D

Kiam pa face :P

Unlike me rite? :0

I was smiling when sms with Chyen.
May asked is it my boyfriend.
Oh man it's IMPOSSIBLE！
~~Cause he's too good for me & I'm suck.~~
Obviously I was joking :P

喜欢一个人没有错。
所以请那些无聊人士别在拿这些东西来取笑别人了。
任何人都有自尊的。
爱一个人，无论是什么类型的爱也好，都值得让我们去尊重的。
很多事，我选择不说，是为了保护我自己，更是为了保护我爱的人。
我知道这样我会很痛苦，但我真的无法再去相信你们任何一个人了。
当然，我们都是朋友，我们还是朋友，但仅此而已。
我们不干涉彼此的私事，这样的生活，是最好的。

我看过一则短篇文章。
说：朋友是陪你一起哭、一起笑、一起玩的人。
可我经历过的就只是一起笑罢了。
你可知道我多希望有个可以陪我一起哭的朋友？
那种感觉是很棒的。
就很像我们是永远都离不开彼此的朋友。
我相信，我会找到那个属于我的朋友。
如果你找到了，请告诉我，我祝福你们 :)

最近怎么啦？
心情总是那么的好。
发神经了？
那也好，这才比较讨人喜欢吧？
嘻嘻。

想要的东西越来越多。
得到了，又要更多。
真的是越来越贪心了！
以前想，如果我们。。。
现在想，如果我们。。。
我的如果永远想不完。
我觉得很矛盾。
到底该结束还是让它继续下去？

放开了拳头，反而更自由，
chiaumei.

I wish I never heard bout that!

2010-05-25T07:29:00.000-07:00

对，你说的都没错。
我承认。
至今，这事实都没变。
可以说我执着，但我就是喜欢。

最近一直吃冰冰的东西哦。
我怕我的子宫会受不了。
我会学会控制的啦。

今天的英语作文我写到最后一秒才停哦。
不知怎么越写越起劲的。
或许我对这个题目比较熟悉吧。
因为老师之前给过类似的题目。
好喜欢 Cikgu Khadijah :D

呃，我没怪你啦。
只是，有些事不知道好过知道，不是吗？
不知道，也就认命了。
知道后，又心痒痒。
我在想，是不是他上辈子为了我而死，所以这辈子欠了他，要还？
如果真的是这样也很好啊。
难道不是吗？:)

生活变得有趣，是为什么？
我知道关键不在于那个人，因为我们的互动从很久以前就有了。
是因为自己变了吗？
也许吧。
我不再执着于一些事了。
被利用就被利用。
不然让自己不开心，那多不值得啊？

明天考数学了。
等下要看看一下习题。
不然到最后又衰轻敌了 :(

Photos Photos :D

Long time ago.Before I trim my hair :)

I miss my fringe :(

Before went to practice dance Chu~ :D

After school,few days ago.

Walau see my black eyes circles O.o
So old la :(

Love the hair on that day :)

Not that my face chubby.
Is just I was eating two fish balls.
Ahahahahaha :P

I don't mind if you call me 'fei po'.
Cause I know I am :(

Like babies doesn't mean that I ought to have a baby face :S

Good night ppl.
Try not to miss me anyway. xoxo

我的心一直都在 :),

chiaumei.

What the Hell? -.-'

2010-05-24T08:12:00.000-07:00

他妈的，现在发生什么事哦？
有什么那么大不了的？
有事没事就给我搞这些事来。
你知道这会让我很痛苦吗？
你可以用所有东西来惩罚我，但就是不可以搞我的头发！
你再给我试看看，再敢让我的头发掉，我就。。。
我就去自杀！

说到这个就气！
真的想要我变光头吗？
你是真的不知道还是假的不知道？
掉头发很痛苦的啊！
平时掉一条两条无所谓。
但每次冲凉洗头都要掉一撮，你不觉得那很恐怖吗？
不觉得是你他妈家的事！
关我屁事啊？！
不要再来搞我了！！！

不要以为我会感谢你。
我并不怕死。
要惩罚我就来啊？
一，就给我死，不然就给回我的头发！

最讨厌就是有人说什么感谢上苍的话。
还给我什么 Kepercayaan Kepada Tuhan -.-'
我顶你！

Went police station today.
For my dad's stuff.
Then went to tuition.
I know I was very active today.
But it just a seldom case.
So please don't mind bout it.

BM today was suck.
I don't know how to do.
But I still don't want to study.
I know I very GL :P
Ps.GL=Guai Lan.
Jian taught me that :)

我需要的只是时间 :),
chiaumei.

Short Post.

2010-05-23T08:17:00.000-07:00

I dream of By2 yesterday!
Oh my god I was so excited.
I talked so much with them.
Loveee them muchii!

Exam tomoro.
But I never touch my book yet.
Wish me luck tomoro :)
And of course,I wish you guys!

Hey Miko & Yumi :D,
chiaumei.

That's too much.

2010-05-21T06:53:00.000-07:00

Went to practice dance after school.
I can't dance well.
Very 'cake sui' :(
I will find more time to practice & of course study.

May didn't coming.
She said she was working.
So may change to next Wednesday.
It's so lucky she changed the date.
Cause today was the last episode for my beloved drama.
It's truly a nice korean drama that I ever watch before.
I love Sin Aley sooo much!
She's so pretty :D
Yea,the drama is Cruel Templation 妻子的诱惑.
It's super double triple nice,trust me :)

I'm headache now,again.
Hate that.
Try not to eat panadol,cause it's not good for health.
Hope tomoro will be alright.

Going to school for add math tomoro.
I swear I will go tomoro.
Cause I not really know how to do the Linear Programming.
The equations confused me sometimes.
I hope after tomoro I could handle it well.

Well,it's time to tell the story.
I...I think I...I did something wrong again.
What the stupid woman I am.
Okay,stop here bitch :S

My new target for SPM:

Get at least 3A.
Get at least C for the rest subjects.
Get D for LK but not G.

I hope I could reach the target,especially the last one :(
That LK truly kills me!

You will know who loves you the most when you're facing problem,
chiaumei.

Don't wanna to fall for it anymore.

2010-05-20T07:00:00.000-07:00

Wen Jie,Happy Birthday! :D
Wish you happy everyday;
Sweet-sweet with your dear E T;
& let me bully with a smiling on your face :P
Lastly,hope your wishes come true.

I was so happy in school today.
Don't ask me why.
Cause I'm still searching for the answer.

My mom said it's all because of him.
But I don't think so.
I think may be this week all school's teachers so nice gua.
Anyway,started to like my school life already.
Good news eh? :0

Next week starts exam already.
Then after exam,it's holidays.
Woohoo~Finally!

Suddenly felt that my school life gonna to end soon.
Yea,of course it's a good news for me.
For everyone,though.
Well,may be it's only for me.

Yea,you.
I'm still wondering what's my feelings actually.
But don't worry,I already knew the fact.
So I don't sad anymore,but still,I will miss everything.
I don't regret cause you know,I was so happy :D

No U.B.C nor chinese class tomoro.
But have to practice dance.
Although it's tired,but it's worth,I believe in it.
And ya,
Chyen,Huang,Yien,Fung,Jie,Moon ga yau! :)
I'm waiting for your show time.
Don't disappointed me but you're not allowed to win us! :P
Yea,I'm very selfish.

Not that I want to give up,it just I'm not able to change the fact :(,
chiaumei.

Good or Bad News? :0

2010-05-19T08:35:00.000-07:00

Yea hell I'm back!
So fast eh?
Well,no facebook doesn't mean no blogging rite?
yea rite.

Now I only on facebook for accept friends request.
Then off.
Don't wanna waste time on it anymore.

I took photos of course.
But lazy to upload now.
May be later.
But when I say 'later',that means 'never'.
However,wait for me eh.

Actually I'm not going to online anymore.
But my babe made me broke my rule.
See,you're so important :)

I felt better after Sunday.
Cause I told my parents bout everything.
And I started to change my life.
Like,don't care too much or else I will be get hurt.

Tomoro have to duty.
I hate :(
Cause it's very tired you know.

Then Friday will be my busy day.
Practice dance then make up.
But it's okay.
Cause both of that are my hobby!

Oh ya,I'm selling contact lens now with my babe.
Leave a comment if you're interested.

Don't even try to control my feelings again,
chiaumei.

Can you wait for me? :0

2010-05-14T09:03:00.000-07:00

Skipped school yesterday.
No why,just lazy.
And yea,I cried like ~~hell~~ last night.
However,forget bout it.

I've been offline for bout more than 24 hours eddi.
Miracle eh?
Yea,it was.

I decided not to online anymore.
I mean not for now.
May be after one week or two weeks.
I don't touch my computer unless I got work to do.
And for sure,no more FACEBOOK.
Cause there's no internet for the one who's gonna to die anytime rite?
Yea,I think so.

Between,exam is coming.
I will study hard this time.
As babe said,this time will be the most important test.

I felt so sad.
I don't even care whether the people around me like me or not.
I just care bout my family.
I need their support badly.
But yet,they never did so.
Well,it's okay if you don't support me.
But at least give me a chance.
I can do better or even the best if I wanted to do!
Please don't say those words that hurt my heart.
Or else,I will go to the kitchen and hand you a knife to kill me.
There's no reason for me to live in this world rite?
I lost my target,my family and my friends.
Friends?
Did I own them before?
I wondering.

Ps.I don't die for anyone.I just want to leave this world,alone.

Don't simply judge me if you don't know anything.
I hate those fellow.
And,don't lan sok with me.
It's so disgusting.

I think I will be back soon.
May be I will be back with a lot of photos or my latest news.
But who knows?
May be I won't be back anymore & create my new blog?
Yea,it's time to change my life.
I don't wan to act anymore.
Although I'm talented.

That's all.
Bye.

Want to be a korean :),
chiaumei.

My Target :D

2010-05-12T08:19:00.000-07:00

Wondering should I close my blog from all of you or not.
Cause I got a lot to complain & I wanted to make here as my diary.
What do you think? :0

Started to back to my normal school life.
I don't play truant anymore.
Why?
I wondering.

I wish tomorrow my stomach would pain like ~~hell~~.
Then I could skip my school again!
hehe.

School today was suck.
However,I felt so lucky.
Thanks Amirun for the Autocad.
Thanks Jia Moon for arranging the papers.
Thanks! :)

Practiced dance today.
I could only find my smile while dancing with them.
They're so cute and yea smart :D

I got my new target.
I know I can do it & I should I must I have to!
Nothing could stop me.
I will do what I want after SPM cause I would get my freedom!

I wanted to die.
But I'm not going to commit suicide or what.
Cause I won't let my parents sad for me.
I will just follow the way that God wanted me to go.
Ps.I'm thinking positive now,very positive,but only for now.What bout the next minute? :0

You know how much I hate you!,
chiaumei.

Happy Mommy's Day :D

2010-05-09T08:31:00.000-07:00

No celebration for Mommy's Day today.
They said may be will celebrate it on next week.
I don't know.

Anyway,Happy Mother's Day for everyone!
My mom asked me for present but you know,I don't know what to gift her.
Just wish her happy everyday.
And hope that I won't fight with her anymore.
But it's hard you know?
She's like...
However,I will try my best.

不要总是一厢情愿地认为，只要付出诚意，就能得到你爱的人的心，
实际上，对方如果不爱你，或者说，根本不可能爱上你，
你再多的诚意对对方只是一种负担，还不如你选择你的对象的好。

Just saw this form somewhere.
What do you think?
I think it's talking bout me.
Obviously yea?

Sometimes I think I could forget everything,
every moment that we stay together.
But sometimes,I just felt like it never gone.
However,I don't care much.
What I care now is,my happiness.
I lost it since two years ago.
I'm living in a hard life.
Could you understand it?
NO.

I don't blame anyone.
Cause I know,It's hard to know 100% of someone.
I wish I could become more mature.
And for sure,I hope all my friends around me could wake up & stop to hurt others.
If you don't respect others,no one will gonna respect you.

When I say I miss you,you know that I'm still loving you :(,
chiaumei.

Think too much -.-'

2010-05-08T10:01:00.000-07:00

今天一个人在家。
爸爸去喝朋友孙子的满月酒。
厉害哦？
这么快就有孙子了！
我想，我也要快点结婚生个小孩给我老爸玩。
不过啊，我怕痛啊！:(
至于我妈呢，她就去阿婆家打麻将。

一个人在家的感觉蛮好的。
没人和我抢电视，要上网时就去上网。
还蛮自由的嘛！

不过还是有坏处的啦。
一个人在家就会胡思乱想。
就譬如刚才啊，为了省电，我把不必要的电源全都关了。
搞得整间屋子都暗暗的。
我就开始想到那些那些了！
这都要怪自己啦！
最近看太多那些故事了！

不仅如此，在我冲凉时，我又想，会不会有贼进屋呢？
如果有，会不会偷关我的灯，让后等我出来把我杀掉？
我越想越怕！
从冲凉房走出来时还左看看右看看！
我想我快要发神经了！

注：在看电视时收到宝贝的信息。本来想回的，电话却到期了。对不起啊 :)

I need you :),
chiaumei.

I'm not regretted!

2010-05-07T07:24:00.000-07:00

My little daughter so sweet today.
She said:Mama,Happy Mother's Day!
I was so touch.
Love her muackss :D

After U.B.C,went home.
Ate lunch,watched TV & online for a while.
After that,went to bath.

May came around 7p.m.
She's so nervous today cause she's having the test.
She failed in the first time that's why she's so scared.
However,we're so lucky today cause she passed!
Congratulation! :D

I was thinking bout something & someone while she was applying make-up on my face.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
Well,I admitted that that one truly loved me deeply last time & I never appreciate bout it.
However,he's still the bastard!
I wanted to slap myself!
Hey come on,don't kill my brain cells okay? -.-'

Wondering should I attend the Add Math class tomoro.
Teacher just scolded us today.
And ya,I'm scared.
How? :(

Exam is just around the corner.
But,who cares? :0

Don't Lan Si Lan Si there -.-',
chiaumei.

Youtube ♥

2010-05-05T06:02:00.000-07:00

What?!
I could view youtube finally!
I truly so happy today.

So lucky I could join the dance of Chu ♥
Thanks Eunice for asking me.
Any yay!
I knew I was a bit over excited today when dancing.
But you know what?
I like challenge :)

I have Moral Project to finish but I still don't want to touch it.
Omg!truly can't put any attention there la.
Do it later kay?
Hope so haha :)

Do you love me? I don't care! :P,
chiaumei.

自以为是。

2010-05-04T06:58:00.000-07:00

想死的念头又在脑力旋转着。
只有宝贝知道我究竟发生了什么事。
我告诉她，是因为我只信任她 :)

我说你啊，不喜欢人家就不要一直说那些暧昧的话！
你知道这样的人是最欠揍的吗？
我告诉你，要搞我？
下辈子。。。都不可能！

还有你们啊，别想再控制我了！
我会找回以前的那个我！
我不需要你们！

为权啊。。。FACEBOOK！:P

别再让我动摇，
chiaumei.

成长。

2010-05-03T03:44:00.000-07:00

上线到凌晨一点。
还不是为了跟他聊天。
本来还不想那么早睡的。
但他赶我去睡，而我又有点累了，就下线咯。

虽然很累，但躺在床上却怎么也睡不着。
于是，我拨了电话给志荣哥哥。
但他实在太可爱了！
竟然没接到电话！
其实这也是意料中事啦，哈哈！

然后我就打给淑雯咯。
我打给她时她没接到。
原以为我就得一个人到天亮了，怎知她又打回来了！
我们聊了差不多四十分钟，真是谢谢她啦！
挂线后，我还是睡不着。
就这样懵懵懂懂的过了那几个小时。
现在的我可说是累到屁这样！
所以就快去睡了。

谢谢蚊蚊送我的生日礼物！
怎么感觉有点陌生啊？
很像，很久没见的朋友。。。
你，也有同感吗？

我不知道自己怎么了。
难到。。。我对他有感觉了？
不行！太快了，这不像我！

可是，我上线还不是为了。。。
李巧湄，你够了哦！
再这样我就惩罚你今天不准睡！

好啦，不想了。
我不想再一厢情愿了。
我已经对这四个字彻底的厌倦了！
凡是慢慢来吧！

但我就是等不及 :(,
chiaumei.

执着。

2010-05-02T08:06:00.000-07:00

Aderson Sim Yien Yien,Happy Birthday!
希望你能把周公追到手啦 :P
还有啊，祝你天天开心；
每天都睡得饱饱；
手指可以灵活一点；
想我多一点！:D

最近真的是走桃花运了！
不过都不是理想的桃花。
我想，我应该会在毕业后才投入感情生活吧。
又或者偷偷和别人交往！
（干吗要偷偷啊？:0)
不管啦，反正就是，顺其自然！

想通了。
原来以前的我都太执着了！
有人说，别执着于你得不到的，珍惜你现在所有的。
嗯，我会珍惜的。

亲爱的，再见了。
我已经撇开一切了！
你的一切，我都不会放在心上了。
但无可否认，我们还会是朋友 :)
我不会再像以前那样缠着你了。
现实的生活让我看穿了你。
原来，你也并不是我所想象的那样。

所以拜托你们了，我是真的放弃他了！
别再认为我对他有特殊的感情，给予他特别的对待！

但也有人说，凡事都要去争取，不然以后就会后悔。
到底该听谁的啊？
好矛盾！-.-'

啊！我知道了！
要听自己心里的话 :)

因为你，我迷失了很久。
也因为你，让别人对我失去了信任。
但也是因为你，让我尝到爱的感觉。
我不后悔爱上你，但如果我继续爱着你，那我就会后悔了！
因为在我人生的路途中，还有很多人在等着我。
我不能让他们伤心的，不是吗？
所以，再见啦 :D

严拒姐弟恋！，
chiaumei.

The 200th Post!

2010-04-30T10:40:00.000-07:00

Apple Candy Natalie Lai,Happy Birthday! :D
我祝你生日快乐！
希望你一切顺利；
带眼识人；
永远觉得我最好！:P

耶！终于到第 200 个 post 了哦！
太开心了 :)

今天又没去学校啦。
不意外了哦？哈哈。
真怕收到老师的“警告信”。
不是怕她放我假，而是怕我爸骂我！
不过我比较希望他杀死我。

最近真的有死的冲动！
我在想，我存在这世上的意义到底是什么。
我什么都做不好，难得做好的，却又不被认同。

现在终于懂为什么那么多人要自杀了。
我很了解他们当时的心情。
我会是他们的其中一位吗？

不过还是谢谢志荣哥哥啦~
（我知道你超爱这个名字的！）
他为我花了一个小时来完成这个作品，就是为了让我能开心。
其实那不算是帅哥啦，是美女还差不多 :P
但还是谢啦 :)

突然又不想死了。
因为我知道还是有人喜欢我的。
原来，我还有魅力的 :)

喜欢被告白的时刻 :),
chiaumei.

What's wrong with me? Part II

2010-04-28T05:53:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Edmund Low! :D
Wish you all the best :)

Yea I skipped school again.

What's wrong with me?!
No way!
No more ponteng!
Or else my dad & Puan Aimi are going to kill me.

Recorded a video last night.
It's so lame & I am wondering should I post it here haha.

I asked my mom to kill me yesterday.
I truly can't stand it all...
Could anyone try to understand me?
I've been trying hard to change myself.
And,I changed.
I changed to be a girl that always skip school.
That's not what I want.
I just...
Just rather to stay at house.
Of course I know what the bad things would come for me.
But I just can't control myself.

Well,it's so sad that no one going to listen to you.
Like,you're alone in the world.
And I hope I could be alone.
Then no more comments from them,them or them.

Tomoro would be my busy day.
Have to do all the works that I skipped today.
See,I have to pay for the 'extra holiday' :(

Trying to stop skipping school,
chiaumei.

The choices.

2010-04-26T05:19:00.002-07:00

Yea,a busy day for me.
Tired & sleepy.
Slept at 1++a.m this morning.
Kept drama-ing.
I truly brainless -.-'

A lot of essays to be done!
Chinese,Malay & English!
I done chinese but still left Malay.
I'm going to finish the Malay one on tomoro bout 4a.m.?
Cause have to pass up tomoro.
I'm not lazy or wat.
I truly tired like hell now.
And the English essay would be left till Wed or Thurs.
Cause I have to pass up on Friday.

Confusing now.
I truly don't know what course should I take after graduated.
Beauty course?
Sure I will take.
But I hope I could take more.
May be Hotel & Tourism Management Course?
Or may be Nursing Course?
Argh!
It's very hard to make a choice.
Well,may be I will take one of them but I will take Beauty Course along while studying.
Am I too greedy？
Could I make it?

You know what I need :(,
chiaumei.

Keep-fit!

2010-04-24T10:39:00.000-07:00

Skipped school today.
So I skipped add math class.
Sorry for Guan Guan cause I took his add math book :P

Went dinner with parents,ah po & fei yi.
Ah po told me that it's time for me to loss some weight already.
I felt like I was going to cry when I heard that.
I truly wanted to die :(

Well,I decided to diet start from now!
Nothing could stop me!

Sorry Helen babe.
Dad was using com on that time.
Anyway,I scolded that JY for you already.
Don't worry,you have a lot of best friends around you to be your supporter :)

Hate Sunday morning :(,
chiaumei.

Reflection.

2010-04-23T05:23:00.000-07:00

今天早上在去学校之前，我妈跟我说了一些东西。
我这才发觉我和他原来都是一样的。
为什么我只会说别人却不懂得如何反省？
但我想，再怎样我都会比他好一些些。
至少我都是用真心来帮助别人，而他呢？
不是没有好处不帮，就是帮得心不甘情不愿！

心情不好时不仅给脸色别人看，还破口大骂！
请问一下，别人惹到你哪条毛？
告诉你，其实你在无形中已得罪很多人了！
只是我们都不想把事情闹大，所以才对你如此忍让！
别以为这样就表示我们怕了你。
要我们怕你？
省点吧。

我了解任何人都会有情绪化的时候，我也是。
但你未免也太没有风度了吧？
还有你那自以为“很酷”、“很帅”的动作真的让人隐隐作呕！

真可怜那个女的。
是眼睛“Ko Sai”还是中邪？:0
祝你好运啦！
哈哈哈哈！

今天 Mr.Balan 赞我美耶。
我就知道他早就暗恋我了！
哈哈。
Teacher don't worry,I don't have boyfriend yet :)

除此之外，他还说了一些道理给我们听。
“A fish won't get in any trouble if it keeps it's mouth shut!”
说的很有道理吧？:)

今天是老爸来载我放学。
很开心呢，因为我好几天没看到他了。。。
希望我们能有多点时间来相聚！

唉，明天还得去学校。
感觉有点发烧了。
是不够睡吧？
也对，才睡不到几个小时。
今天或许会早点睡吧？
希望如此。

请给我一桶泻药 :(,
chiaumei.

Brainless.

2010-04-22T07:54:00.000-07:00

I felt headache when woke up today.
However,I went to school.
I told my mom that I don't wan to go school actually.
Me:我本来今天不要去学校的，但觉得再这样下去也不是办法，所以就去咯。
Mom:是啦！
Me:Okay 啦，我明天才不要去！
I knew she let me boom dou 99!haha.
Anyway,I think I won't be absent tomoro.
No why,just wanted to be a good student for teachers.
I can't be the best actress but at least I know how to act a good student :P

I was happy in school today.
But after recess,I super fire!
That brainless guy think himself very pandai.
He don't know what he said would hurt people?
Especially me.
I'm a very sensitive human -.-'
Don't always think that you're the only person that has feelings in the world.
And don't think that you own the whole world now.
I will see how good you both going.
We will see.

You changed, a lot.
I knew now you can take nothing from me,but please be rational.
Never mind,when the day reached,you will know what happened.
Trying to challenge me huh?
You still young la!

Tomoro have to attend chinese class,so dun have U.B.C.
Yer I don't want :(
Sigh.
But forced to.

I wish...
I wish...
I wish...
I wish a lot.
Anyway,Gambateh! :D

I don't want to do homeworks :(,
chiaumei.

I love holidays :D

2010-04-21T06:57:00.000-07:00

Well I skipped school yesterday.
Just felt like dun wan to go.
Really hate school alot!

Thanks chyen & mun for sms me.
Thanks for care me so much.
Appreciate it :D

However I felt happy today in school.
May be I had an extra holiday yesterday haha.
I wish principal could give students more holidays so that no one gonna moody :P
Wake up la stu!

Helen babe,no matter what had happened to you,I will always be here for you ^^
I think your problem almost same as mine.
As you taught me,dun bother them.
Just live in our own way our own life!
Be happy :D

Tried to print out my photo by using my new printer.
Well I'm not SS or what.
It just my dad wanted me to learn bout that.
I tried so hard and finally I get one but looked a bit cacat.
But it's okay anyway.
And I'm not going to try one more.
Cause I dun wan to waste so much ink.

Few days didnt update.
Ya I'm lazy haha.
Erm,nothing much to update.
Just want to tell them:Thanks for those lessons that you taught me :)
I will remember it forever.

Wondering what should I buy for my sei dong-Apple Candy Lai :)
Kay la I decided to wrap myself for her.
She must be so happy :P

I wish we could be best friend forever :D,
chiaumei.

New Moon.

2010-04-18T09:06:00.000-07:00

Today just an ordinary day for me.
I had to wake up early in the morning & went to tuition.
I hate that badly but yet,I'm not going to change it & I can't.
So,just take it easy.

After tuition,went to eat lunch.
Met a girl who named Jess.
She came to talk to me and she mentioned bout Chyen & Huang.
I guessed she knew I'm their friend.
She told me she's Jing er's best friend.
And yea,Jing er is Huang's girlfriend.

After lunch,I continued my novel-The Twilight Saga:New Moon.
Oh I love Edward & Bella.
And I found out I already addicted to them.
The novel can't satisfy me.
So I found the movie & I watched it.
Super satisfied now haha.

Well,it's late now anyway.
Have to go for my bed already.
Cause you know,tomoro would be my busy day.
A very busy day.

Love Edward :D,
chiaumei.

Everything was fine.

2010-04-17T09:24:00.000-07:00

Went to Mutiara for lunch.
Then went to Brem for the movie 'Ice Kacang Puppy Love'.
The movie was still okay for me.

Here's my latest photos.
And I uploaded some on my facebook.
Check it out if you're interested in it.

Was covering my pimple :)

The outdated pose for me.

Helen babe,sorry anyway :(

Everything was fine when I was alone :),
chiaumei.

失望。

2010-04-15T07:01:00.000-07:00

今天还是像往常一样去上学。
可笑的是，还是不想去学校 :(
没关系啦，再忍吧！

拿了所有的考试分数。
我几乎要晕死过去了。
我的成绩根本不能见人！
照惯例我会把成绩打出来让大家看的，但这次真的没脸打出来了。
这次的考试我真的没有心去考。
我越来越讨厌念书了！
是因为学校人的关系吗？
不知道。
总之，现在对我来说根本是浪费青春！
（虽然我懂对我们来说现在读书是最重要的。）
不管了，再怎么说，我也不想看到我的成绩那么烂！
所以下次我一定会努力的！（希望如此吧。） :P

今天很多人没来上华文课呢！
有功课要做哦。
从课本抄名句精华第一到第十五。
我不知道我会何时才开始抄，但肯定不是今天 :)

瑾宝贝啊，就别那么气了嘛。
不是你教我的吗？别把他们当朋友！
这样你就不会受伤害了。
无论如何，我都站在你这边哦！

从今以后我都不会再相信谁了。
我那么相信你，没想到你竟然是那种在背后打小报告的人！
她对你真的那么重要吗？
那么干嘛又扮到不在乎？
别再那么虚伪了！
还以为你和别人不同，原来一切都是我自己一厢情愿！
为什么总要把我一次又一次的推入谷底？
你们真的有那么希望我死吗？

我的人其实很简单，人不犯我，我不犯人。
但我很敏感，你的一句无心之差，会很严重的影响到我的情绪。
但我已经在控制了。
奇怪的是，我发觉最近我的脾气越来越差了！
是因为月经的关系吗？
还是我真的什么也不管，看开了？

娜，对不起啊。
唉，又跟你说对不起了 :(
还是你最好。
无论我发脾气还是在那里三八，你都会配合我。
我伤心时你也会安慰我。
可是在你伤心失望时我又帮不到什么忙，感觉我很坏哦！
我答应你尽量控制我的脾气啦。

祝明天的参赛者好运哦。
加油！

请问你是谁？你凭什么？,
chiaumei.

《美丽密令》

2010-04-14T06:53:00.000-07:00

Short Notes

School.
Librarian meeting.
Eat,took shower,dried hair.
Fetched Yien.
Went Jusco watched the movie at 6.45p.m.
Finished at 8.30p.m.
Reached home at 9.30a.m.
Slept at 11++p.m.

Have a nice but tired day,
chiaumei.

Mommy Happy Birthday :D

2010-04-13T06:46:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to my dearest mommy :D
Wish you happy everyday & healthy forever!
Get more $$$ from my daddy,your hubby :P
Love you muackss :)

喜欢我给你的惊喜吗? :0,
chiaumei.

外表开心的人。

2010-04-12T03:23:00.000-07:00

前两天我拍了一些秋秋的照片。
得空时会把照片上传。

这几天，我很不开心。
应该是说，我不开心很久了。
想了很多该想的，或不该想的。

我妈最近都很担心我。
因为她觉得我的脸很多肉，怕我有什么病。
因为我表妹之前就是这样。
其实我反而没什么好担心的。
身体出一点状况也不错，至少这样我就可以不必去学校了。
这样一来，你们就看不到我，我就更不用见到你们了！
这对你们是最好的，不是吗？

或许有人觉得我这样想很悲观，但他们根本就不了解我的感受！
所以请你们这些人在说别人之前要三思。
难道我自己的感受我自己不清楚吗？
你们会比我自己还清楚？
不可能吧？
所以以后请搞清楚状况才来下评论！

我想，我现在很需要一位辅导员或一位专业的心理医生来治疗我。
不然在这样下去我迟早会得忧郁症！
我想忧郁症的人在临死之前脑袋一定在想着很多问题。
就因为如此，他们根本不知道自己会走向危险地带。
等到清醒时，一切都已太迟了。

虽然有时我会有说有笑，但我真的很久没有真正的开心过了。
我不想总是摆着一副臭脸来面对别人，所以有时我就得装。
等到一个人时，脸上就再也没有笑容了。
有时脑袋在想事情时，脸就会没有表情，别人就会以为你在闹什么脾气。
我就是很讨厌他们这种想法。
难道我就得照着他们的意思去生活吗？
我不能活出自己吗？
能！
只要离开他们。。。

我很想回到以前，回到我们几个兄弟姐妹一起玩的时候。
虽然我们吵架的次数也不少，但我们彼此都很坦白，十分钟后就会忘记不开心的事了。
当然我们也有打架，但打着打着就会笑出来了。
喜欢我们一起骑单车的时光，喜欢一起打羽球、篮球的童年。
喜欢我们玩老师老师，煮饭仔。。。
虽然我一直希望长大，但我更希望我长大后还能享受这些时光。
有谁告诉我要如何做才能达成我这小小的心愿呢？

盈妤跟我说，朋友之间就是要互相体谅的。
没错，我很赞同。
但谈何容易？

我没有诉说心事的对象。
有什么是我都得自己承担。
虽然我很多事都告诉妈咪，但伤心的是我却很少跟她提起。
就譬如说我在学校有多么的痛苦，不开心。

没有人了解我，更没有人关心我。
有啊，只有我的家人。
还记得在小时候有人问我：谁是你的好朋友啊？
我就会很天真无邪的一个一个说出名字来。
换做现在还问我这个问题的话，我会回答说：我没有朋友。
我说的一点也没错。
原来朋友之间真的要互相利用才能维持下去的。
我现在终于明白了。

Girl Girl 姐姐也跟我说过朋友之间不应该不爽来不爽去。
如果要这样那么干脆不做朋友。
我觉得她说得很对，也很酷。
老实说，我不爽我朋友很久了。
我知道他们也和我想的一样。
既然大家都知道，却没有一个肯坦诚对待。
那就算了，不然我还能做什么？

有时真的受委屈了，也没告诉任何人。
当真的太委屈了，我就会选择在入睡以前躲在棉被里哭。
由于我甚少哭泣，所以我有很多存量。
不哭还好，一哭就如洪水来临一样，一发不可收拾。
其实这对失眠有好处哦。
因为哭完后就想睡觉了。

wenyi,你说我让你想通了。
我不知道你想通了什么，也不想知道了。
我只知道我们是不可能像以前那么好了。
但你要知道，我们会搞到今天这个地步，并不是因为他造成的。
而是我们自己的问题。
你应该懂是什么问题的，如果不懂那就算了。
免得再提起又要再吵了。
我有想过当一切都没发生过，重头来过。
但有人告诉我不可以这样，因为问题总要解决的。
他还说：现在不比以前好，可能以后会比以前更好！
虽然我不是很懂，但我想聪明的你应该懂吧。
无论如何相信我，你曾经是我最好的朋友。

Get 62% for my moral paper & 71% for my BI paper.
I know it's not good enough.
But at least better than physics,chemistry & history rite?
Yea,I'm talking bout 'rubbish'!

要上人就讲，别在那假惺惺,
chiaumei.

白兔;By2.

2010-04-09T08:59:00.000-07:00

How's it?

本来今天不想去学校的。
但那个老师说今天不去就永远别上她的课了。
但谁稀罕啊？
我只是不想那几节没地方去，闷死了。
讲到一付很有责任感的样子，其实什么都不是！
每次都只会在银幕上乱指一通，也不管我们到底明不明白。
或许这也不能怪老师吧，是我太没天分了 -.-'
无论如何我只想说：我不喜欢她。

沉闷的上课时间就这样懵懵懂懂的过了。
接下来就很精彩啦！
今天是华文学会的歌唱比赛，我排第十位。
上台前我很紧张咯，在台上也很紧张，不过很明显比去年好很多了。
因为去年我的手心还冒冷汗呢！
也许有经验了，所以就没那么害怕了。
所以说啊，一次生，两次熟嘛！
虽然还不懂我们是否能得奖，但我心中已有数了。
我不介意再一次失望。
反正我们也都只是为华文学会出一份力 :)

回家后，我就一面吃东西一面看电视节目。
吃饱后，又躺在沙发上看戏，不肥死也难 -.-'
看看下觉得眼皮很重，真的是太累了！
所以就把电视关了，去书房睡觉。
但好像怎么睡也睡不好，不知怎么了，好讨厌这种感觉！
不过幸好醒来后没有头痛。

起来后，上网一下子。
我爸就买晚餐回来了。
他吃饱冲凉后就又出去了。

打开电视看娱乐百分百。
因为我很像不懂在哪里看到 By2 说她们星期五会上这个节目。
果然没有错，我看到她们了！
我真的是爱死她们了，她们真的很有才艺！
又会唱歌，又会跳舞！
所以啊，这些就是所谓的实力！
不过我总感觉主持人没什么理她们，感觉她们被冷落了！
是我的错觉吗？希望是！:)

还记得以前很讨厌她们唱的“好好爱^0^”，因为觉得很假。
但没想到在我听到她们的“不够成熟”后，我就开始喜欢上她们了。
然后就开始喜欢上她们的每一首歌了，今天还唱了曾经不喜欢的“好好爱^0^”！
所以说啊，世事就是难料，就像我们之间。。。

今天不能通宵了。
因为明天得去 Add Math 的 extra class.
很累耶。
似乎每天都要去上课 :(
唉，算了，反正都最后一年了 :)

Reply 茜茜：
1.* 讨厌~不要这么直接拉！公开让别人知道！你发现什么样的问题啊？
-我不觉得会没人知道。问题不在于你，是我。

2.* 以前我简直不会主动去找你们，除非他有事做！
-现在有很主动吗？不见得。

3.* 这么容易破坏到，这段情要不要也罢咯！
-也对。

4.* 呵呵~我可不敢乱交出自己的性命！没办法，谁教出来的？
-是吗？你不是一直很想死哦？鬼懂你？

5.* 我就知道结果，反正我也决定了，跟你们出去是一回事，跟他出去也是一回事！什么为什么？男朋友不是大完的！对久了，腻了就不好咯！常常对着，有时还没话说呢！
-那你这个人还蛮花心。对久一个人就会觉得腻，就代表不是真心爱对方啊！

我要的很简单，但你却给不起，
chiaumei.

Oh my hair :)

2010-04-08T08:52:00.000-07:00

Can't sleep till too late although today is my 'holiday'.
Cause May dated me haha.
After we done our make up,She fetched me to cut my hair.
Oh my god how nice she was!
Love her :D
Ya,I cut my fringe,will post the photo tomoro or tomoro or tomoro.

Went Kao Fu Zai's shop after that for singing competition stuff.
But he was so busy that time so I went Yong Jian's house.
Thanks him for the Microsoft & By2 online game's disc!

Dad bought printer for me cause he dun want me always go out beg ppl for that.
How sweet he was but he don't know I seldom use it haha.
Plus,he bought new keyboard for me too!
Cause mine very old already and some words are gone.
Thank you for being so sweet :D

Sei Aderson Sim Yien Yien!
Could you reply faster? -.-'
If not I will think you already pengsan or wat.
Always want me wait you like a siao boh (although I already was.)
Sigh,no eyes to see you anymore.

Reply 倩茜：
1.-- 只是曾经而已吗？我说出来了，你当然懂啦！
#是啊，过去式。别忘了我们已经离婚了。但我们发现的问题都不一样！

2.-- 我可没有噢！每次看到你时，总是一副要吃人的样子，我可不敢去惹你叻！如果我真的重色轻友，我的博客就不会满满都是朋友的东西！重色轻友，说真的，我以前才严重得多！
#因为当我们碰面时，都有为无关人士（对我来说）。为什么？

3.-- 我并不这么觉得的！或许同伴的关系，你们觉得我每天都跟他一起！的确下课的时候我都是跟他一起，我承认！但是如果你们想要跟我下课，我不介意的！我现在才知道自己这么受欢迎=]
#我没必要无事去抢别人的女朋友，我不想破坏你们的感情！别自恋了，才不管你。不在一起就不在一起嘛，又不是没试过！

3.-- 我的命这么宝贵！你要的起吗？哈哈~你要我陪早讲嘛！不要摆那吃人的脸给我看嘛！我懂你吃醋了~哈哈
#不想要。自己的命都管不住了，还拿多一个拖累自己吗？不用！你太自恋了。

4.-- 我知道你是不可能会接受他的！即使我是你，我也无法去容忍我讨厌的人啊！但至少你答应我，为了我也好，下次大家一起出去的时候，就算他又去也好，你也要跟着去，不准推掉，好吗？有急事除外拉！我不会因为男朋友有去而黏着他的！看我以前就知道啦！就算跟yien拍拖，我也每次跟你两个另外走的啊！
#我无法答应。我现在在学校眼神也尽量不瞄到他了，现在还要我出去玩乐时再看到他？休想！我容忍的事已经够多了，你们别太自私！为什么？

5.-- 不必删除，我不会介意的！言论自由不是吗？？
#嗯。

我希望他是因为喜欢我的性格才喜欢我 :),
chiaumei.

谢谢你们 :D

2010-04-07T05:29:00.000-07:00

对啦，前两天不是不得空就是偷懒啦。
不过有没有更新也没人在乎吧？
管他的，我自己打也能自己爽！
前两天发生什么事也忘得七七八八了，哈哈。
但还是尽量回忆一下吧！

最近都跟“猪肉人”（容我最后一次那么叫你嘛~！:P）sms.
总觉得跟他谈特别开心。
因为他的脑很厉害，总是能想到那些奇奇怪怪的事。
我最喜欢就是这种挑战了！哈哈。
谢啦！
不过，你可否把你那坏习惯改掉 -.-'

还有啊，真的是要谢谢永健啦。
不仅给了我 By2 的所有新歌，还肯帮我打歌唱比赛的评分表呢！
真的是太感激他了。

嗯，我不跳那支舞了。
呃，我说过了吗？哈哈。
别管啦，总之就是，解脱啦 :)
尽管如此，还是祝我的朋友们能顺顺利利啦！

今天没什么事发生啦。
只是是我考试的最后一天了！
所以为了慰劳自己，明天放自己一天假！:P

好啦，现在我也要直接点了。
我曾经亲爱的茜茜啊，我终于懂你错什么了！
我不是怪你和他分手，喜欢上别人，这也不是你的错。
我是生气你重色轻友！
你有了他，就没有我们了！
虽然说陪男友是天经地义，但偶尔陪我一下会要你的命吗？
老实告诉你，我有试过为了你们去慢慢接受他，但我真的做不到！
真希望你是真的看清楚了。
注：如果看完后觉得不舒服可以告诉我，我会删除。

Should I listen to my father to be an accountant? :0,
chiaumei.

回忆。

2010-04-04T00:29:00.000-07:00

From Boon Ei's blog.
“人家常说关系真的很好的时候，你会觉得什么都一样，什么都很好！
到了分裂的时候，你会开始觉得他这样不好、那样不好！
会是真的吗？我不知道！
（在很好的时候，我也觉得你有很多东西不好或不够好。但人与人相处就是如此，没有完全合得来的两个人。）
我只知道我们已经不能再像从前一样了。
（嗯，我赞同。但你甘心如此吗？老实说，我不。）
从前的我们，去哪里都是一起的，就算只是臭臭的厕所也都在一起。
（嗯，想想当时真的很开心。那时是中三吧？是我带电话去学校，然后我们就拼命拍照！还记得蹲在马桶的那张照吗？当时很像是我逼你拍的，还要你做出“挤”大便的样子！当时你还很听话，很配合。想起来就好笑！那也是我们的感情最好的时候。）
现在呢？就连说话你也懒得对着我了！
（没错，是很不想讲。都是因为他！多希望这个人从来都没在我们的生命中出现！）
虽然我不懂你到底发生什么事了，我也不想过问。
如果你真的想说给我听，你自然会说！
不会等我问的～
或许是因为他的原因吧！我不知道，也只是乱猜测而已！
（不用说你都知道了。）
我已经尽量去找你、跟你聊天了。
但一次又一次地被泼冷水，不想在被泼了！
就当我自己拿来衰吧！当我自己犯贱吧！
明知人家不想理我，还特意要去找人讲话！
（这种感觉就是你以前给我的。我相信如果我没主动去找你的话，我们可能一整天都不会对话！）
那封信我依然记得，我依然记得你想要的！
但我还是没办法帮你实践了。
或许会这样也只是因为我们的个性太像了吧！
都很倔强！
或许你说的对，如果我们没出现在这所学校，我们不会这么不开心！
有时另外想，如果我们没出现，我们会拥有开心的回忆吗？
一切已经不重要了。
或许三个人在一起的机会少了，拍照更不用说了。
或许那会是最后一张照片了。
但至少我们拥有过。”

New updates.
reply chiaumei:
“（在很好的时候，我也觉得你有很多东西不好或不够好。但人与人相处就是如此，没有完全合得来的两个人。）
--双胞胎也是有不同的个性，更何况两个没有血缘关系的人。
*但我们也有互相谦让的时候不是吗？我们是可以做到的！
（嗯，我赞同。但你甘心如此吗？老实说，我不。）
--不甘心能怎样？试过去争取，试过去挽回，但徒劳无功。虽然不甘心，但至少我努力过！
*你确定你有付出过你所有的努力吗？
（嗯，想想当时真的很开心。那时是中三吧？是我带电话去学校，然后我们就拼命拍照！还记得蹲在马桶的那张照吗？当时很像是我逼你拍的，还要你做出“挤”大便的样子！当时你还很听话，很配合。想起来就好笑！那也是我们的感情最好的时候。）
--你还好说！都不懂我那时做么这么笨配合你！突然想想，如果以后你拿拿照片来勒索我不就惨了！对丫，中三是最怀念的时候，因为我们四个一直呆在一块。
*还好你没忘了我喜欢威胁&勒索人的性格！嗯，其实现在也可以！只是。。。
（没错，是很不想讲。都是因为他！多希望这个人从来都没在我们的生命中出现！）
（不用说你都知道了。）
--所以聪明的我都有避忌！
*你还有心情自恋 -.-'
（这种感觉就是你以前给我的。我相信如果我没主动去找你的话，我们可能一整天都不会对话！）
这是不可能的，因为近来都是我主动开口的！
*都说以前咯！我也不知道你近来发什么神经，会主动找我！”

Newest.
“*但我们也有互相谦让的时候不是吗？我们是可以做到的！
~ 有听过一句话吗？先不管是否成功，只要你觉得你可以，那就有机会。和姬教我的。在你觉得自己可以的同时，你已成功了一大半。
#那我们现在一人只有一半。
*你确定你有付出过你所有的努力吗？
～所有我不敢保证。但至少从开始意见不合的时候，我付出的努力到现在并没有少过。
#老实说，我感觉不到。我能感觉的只有：你根本不需要我。
*还好你没忘了我喜欢威胁&勒索人的性格！嗯，其实现在也可以！只是。。。
～现在才想起已经太迟啦！都拍了～我身上可没有现金赎回那些照片啊！只是什么？
#我像是贪财之人吗？其实我是贪色之人。。。
*你还有心情自恋 -.-'
～自恋是本性！不能怪..
#那你还总说我自恋？！自己还不是 -.-'
*都说以前咯！我也不知道你近来发什么神经，会主动找我！
～我也不懂耶！第一次给了你...主动的感觉还不赖！
但主动后被泼冷水的感觉很不好受！”

That's all for today I think.
I asked someone's opinion.
I think I know what to do.
Or do nothing.

And for those Powder Intestine,
please don't simply leave comments when you dunno anything,thanks.
Anyway,thanks for the right comments.

Yeah new songs by By2! :),
chiaumei.

很辛苦。

2010-04-03T06:51:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 9.30a.m. this morning.
Went guardhouse at ten to take the room's key.
Stayed there to wait other members alone.
No fan there and I closed the doors and all the windows.
I don't felt hot cause it's still morning.
I was so bored when 10.30a.m. then I practiced the dance for a while.

Shok Mun was the first one who reached.
Then we waited together.
Chyen came after that.
They all reached at eleven.
I didn't blame them cause I lazy to.

Finished at one o'clock.
Went bath then had lunch with mommy and grandparents.
Went Brem mall after that to buy calculator -.-'
Bought two Add Math reference books.
So hardworking huh.

After that,mom fetched them back then we went to Taman Kok Lian,
cause mom wanted to buy something.
We went Ah Po's house for a while after that.
Then they said want to play mahjong.
We then went to Ah Kim's house.

I did some questions.
I don't really know how to do it.
It's so hard.
But it's easier than the exam paper.

And now I'm using Daniel's laptop blogging.

___________________________________________________________________
我觉得现在的我除了骂粗口都没什么好说的了。
我到底做错了什么，你们要如此的对待我？
你们生气了，都有理；
我生气了，就说我无理取闹，耍脾气！
你们有必要那么偏心吗？
有必要那么针对吗？
我承认有些事真的是我太冲动了，但那何尝不是事实？
问问你们自己的良心吧。
说着谁？
我所有的朋友，没有例外！

如果你不明白中学的 Moral，请回去小学读道德！
不懂得分尊卑，还亏你是十五十六岁的人！
长得那么大还不懂得用脑来思考吗？！
你以为我想当那没用的组长吗？
我也是在状况外！
不是我不想当个好组长，而是组员都不配合啊，你要我怎样啊！
不是坐在那里不说话，不应话，就是走来走去，根本当我不存在！
以我的性格，我是不会大喊叫他们听话，集合。
也或许这样，你就会认为我不配当组长。
是！我是真的很不配！
也不稀罕。

我真的想清楚了。
无论以后的路有多难走，我都会坚持。
因为我相信，中学的这条路，会是我这辈子过得最惨的日子！
未来，我会让自己更快乐。
至少以后，我都不必再看到这些人的脸孔了！
就算这辈子里我不会再有朋友，我都不会后悔放弃你们！

不管是小学的朋友，或现在的朋友，都很虚伪。
曾经，有个人为了爱情，接近我，当我的朋友。
现在，也有个人为了爱情，离开我，背叛我。
这样的人生，很可悲。
尽管如此，有机会的话，我都不会跟别人交换我自己的人生。
（这是极度恶心虚伪的话。）
我不想有任何人经历我这悲惨的人际关系。
（这是事实。）
我很满意我现在的父母。
虽然我爸很喜欢喝酒，但他从来都没不顾我们，或酒后乱性，乱打我们，所以我爱他；
我妈虽然很唠叨，也很喜欢诬赖我，有时误会我了也不道歉，但我还是很爱她；
我的老鼠虽然不说话，跟它诉苦也不会安慰我，对着它哭虽然会帮我擦泪，但还是不说话，
但我还是很爱它。
在这世界上，就只剩下这三位我最爱也最爱我的人，我很庆幸，也很满意 & 幸福。

好消息，我不爱他了。
这次是真的不爱了。
感觉很轻松，很自在。
谢谢你 =)

I'm single & available :),
chiaumei.

心灰意冷。

2010-04-02T00:22:00.000-07:00

昨天没心情，所以没更新了。
虽然如此，还是十二点多才入睡。

今天五点半就起床了。
其实原本想继续睡，不想去学校考我最讨厌的历史！
但知道我妈一定不允许，所以就勉强起床，然后去学校乱乱作答咯。
其实真的很不想去，就如煌所说的，拿零分好过才拿几分，至少没那么糗！

在到学校之前，我很开心的。
但一到了学校，我就想死了！
到了今日我才知道，我不想去学校的原因竟然不是因为功课，而是学校里的人！
在学校里，我真的很辛苦！
虽然懂这些日子就快过完了，但越是这样想，越难过！

我已经学会把所有事抛开，不去想了。
所以前几天，我都是笑嘻嘻的，很快乐！
但从今天起，我知道我又失败了！
又是被朋友所伤！

命运就是如此。
我真后悔来到这间学校，更后悔认识这些朋友！
如果五年前我不是搬家来到这里，那就好了。
或许我真的能单纯快乐的成长。
他们，真的是我中学生涯的阴影！
我的中学生涯，都是一场噩梦！

我真的不想再跳那支舞蹈了。
既然人家都嫌我们，那为什么我们还要留下来丢人现眼？
还有，明明说好的地点，都可以更改，那是什么意思？
不要每次说我不顾别人的感受！
你们问问自己，曾几何时顾虑过我的感受？
难到我死就是我活该？！

说别人重色轻友，你自己还不是一样？
只会说别人，有拿过镜子照照自己吗？
整个 ** 那样，没资格说别人！
还有你也是，太过分了！
也难怪我会每次向你发脾气！

你可知道你很淫荡？
你让我想作呕；
你让我想一巴跟你打下去；
你让我觉得你很脏！
还有，你很做作。

先姑且不说那些人，就说说那种小角色。
他们凭什么那么对我？！
我对他们也不会很差啊！
没关系，我会自私给你们看。
还有，有种有什么事都不要问我！

突然想要有一位男朋友。
当没有一位能吐槽水的好朋友时，就想要有个男朋友来为自己分担一些压力。
但我依然找不到一位令我满意的对象。
并不是因为我挑剔，而我是不像有些人不择食，有公/母的就可以了！
哦，好狗哦！
注：狗完全被他们给“下水”了。

娜，对不起啊。
我今天真的没心情说话，没理到你。
权，谢谢你让我笑出来。
瑾，有什么不明白的就问我吧！:)

六点钟，姐姐来载我了。
在车上我们都没多说些什么。
到了那里，我们就开始化妆了。
当她化到我的睫毛时，由于把眼睛睁得太久，我掉下了眼泪。
她似乎吓到了，连忙拿纸巾帮我擦泪，还说：“不要哭，我不会欺负你的”
哈哈，她真的是太可爱了！

这次很明显的熟练的很多，也比较快。
所以差不多八点多就到家了。
在回家的途中，我们说的话比较多。
还说了她以前考大考的时候。
笑到我肚子痛。
想知道什么那么好笑吗？
不告诉你，让你心思思 :P

快乐，靠自己寻找，
chiaumei.

Calculator.

2010-03-31T02:05:00.000-07:00

Slept at 8++p.m. yesterday night.
Then woke up at 5.30+a.m. today.
Slept much,I know.

Add math today.
I think I will sad for the whole day when I get the result.
It's sooo hard!
Like I never saw those questions.
Now I only know teacher treated us so good.
He never gave us to do hard questions.
Only the easy questions that small kids also know how to do.
Anyway,study hard next time.
Never last minute anymore.

Went 5Azam practiced dance after school.
We improved a lot if compared to yesterday.
Thats why we said,give us time!
Enjoyed dancing with them.
They said when I dance got DNA's feel.
May be got a bit la.
But DNA's feel not bad rite?haha.

After fetched Bee Teng & Kar Mun back home,dad fetched me back home.
Our car back! :)
When I reached home,I immediately went my room to check whether my calculator was there.
But I can't found it.
I know I lost it again!
Hate our school!
So many pencuri that always like to steal my things!
First my cell phone,then calculator.
If I found out who stole it,I would cut off his/her hands!
Ps.I used Kwok Fung's calculator to do my paper,thanks him.

I don't mad if I only lost my calculator.
I only mad if my mom knew it & scold me for it.
I didn't meant to let ppl steal my things rite?
And she thinks I'm so happy after that -.-'
Come on,please try to understand other's feelings.

I'm chiaumei lee.
Listening Sorry Sorry while blogging.
Want to get close with me?
Listen it then :P

Waiting for my Friday :),
chiaumei.

Sorry Sorry :)

2010-03-30T04:19:00.000-07:00

Lucky Shok Mun replied my message this morning.
If not I sure late for school.
Thank you very muchii!

Lk paper today.
I used one hour to finish it then I slept.
First time fell asleep successfully.
Cause I was very tired.

After recess,no paper for our class.
Then teacher gave us the Math result.
I get 76%,how sad :(
Last time I get 80++!
Nvm,I will do better and the best next time!

After Math period,went physics lab.
I watched the MV of Sorry Sorry from Super Junior by using YJ's iphone.
I watched By2's too!

After school,Boon Chai & Wei Chyen accompanied me to wait Shok Mun.
Yea she absent today cause she dun have any paper.
Then we went to eat our lunch.
Met Pui Pui there,she so cute haha.

After that,went Boon Chai's house to practice dance-Sorry Sorry.
Guan Guan said my butt kept moving -.-'
I can't control it la wei.
Not my fault,my butt too naughty haha.
But actually I saw all of them also like that lor.
Why they only said me so?!
Nvm,I dun mind.
I know I'm too famous and too attractive :P

I was the last one who left his house.
Proud huh?!
Ya,a bit.
But dunno what should I proud of haha.
Anyway,wish we can dance well and give all the teachers & students a good performance.

Hey guys,we can do it rite?
:D

Sometimes,when you want to get more,you lost more than what you want :),
chiaumei.

Make-up Make-up :D

2010-03-29T06:41:00.000-07:00

Moral paper today.
I truly no idea how to do.
So I just simply write the words that inside my mind.
I think I could pass,that's all.

After skul,went home to prepare tuition.
Shok Mun came my house for tuition too.
We practiced to sing.
I think we don't need much time to practice it.
Cause we good enough :P

After tuition,May came fetch me at 6++p.m.
After reached there,she started to put make-up on me.
After two hours,she done.
Then she took some photos of me.

So today's conclusion is:I suit make-up muchhh!
Trust me :D

Tomoro LK.
Meaning I have two hours and thirty minutes to sleep.
How nice :S

Thank you May :),
chiaumei.

Yay! :D

2010-03-28T08:24:00.000-07:00

Met her today.
I think I already found the life that I want!
Damn excited.

Decided to sing with Shok Mun.
Found five songs.
Will choose with her tomoro.
She now is so tired,just backed from camp.

Moral paper tomoro.
Dun have the mood to study.
So wait to be ~~gay~~ (youknowwhatitalkingbout).

Going to sleep at 2a.m.
No why,just for Drama :D
I know I too playful.
But that's called life!
My life :P

I wanted to study but I can't :(,
chiaumei.